Your grace is enough

God's grace

2010-10-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

On the Saturday of 16th October 2010, i shared of God's grace to me in my life and how He became real to me. After the service, i met this girl who just received christ, and she told me she's the same as me last time.. And she affirmed me for my sharing. But i want to say a bigger thank you to her. For giving it a shot to God. Because God loves her. ^^

Actually the issue of sharing wasn't only about judging, but also the attention and the admiration one can gain from the church. What was a challenge to me was a big part, the limelight. Thus the long consideration whether i should come out in the open or not.

But one thing i know, God's grace in my life cannot be more real. His love is so evident to us. And we can truly trust him! =) Thus, no matter what our life is right now, we really need to seek out God's way for us individually! Because God is unique in creating each one of us. The plans are also unique. Your plans aren't my plans, and my plans aren't your plans right? Maybe we do have some similarities... but what's your plan?? =) Share with me alright? =D God bless ya!

The start of unpacking

2010-09-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

It's my first day learning to travel around my new area.. Truth be told, i still don't know how i can get to school! Anyway, i know how to get to town already. The bus stop feels really far.. If i'm wearing heels, i'd DEFINITELY not want to walk home... =) That's the distance of it...

Hope i can pass my driving so i can drive home. My dad say if i pass my driving, he'll let me have the current car.. I'm thinking, 'how long more till scrap.. and maintenance fee's gonna be a toll man...' etc... =) Please don't envy me if you're thinking i'm a rich girl or my parents are good to me. You have good parents too... How much they give doesn't determine how good i am either =) All these are merely God's blessings =) Anyway in future when i work, if i don't have money, eventually i won't be able to afford cars also. So no point to envy right... (Plus i don't like people saying abt it also)

But still, travelling to town has been awesome in a sense. 30-40 mins and i'm there =) Cabbing to school is $6+... But better to save the money =) I'm just 2 bus stops away from Queensway Shopping Centre and 3 from IKEA. HeH HeH HeH! My room looks kinda bland right now... With Linen Green/Brown on two of my recess, one dark grey on the other recess, which is covered up by the super high wardrobe... (Tsk tsk tsk, what a waste, the grey wall looks awesome...) and white which covers everything else... Parquet floor, and dark wood for my bed, tables, etc.. i'm really excited to decorate my room. Thinking of painting quite a few things in my room to make it interesting... Intending to buy photo frames to decor one side of my room. Paintings on my bedhead, and not sure what else i can do with the white wall... cus, it's kinda hard... but my room's quite small...

i wanted to put a carpet and a rest area... but the wall is too high, it's hard to relax... probably i'll put a carpet next to my bedside!! =))) Some bright color.. or maybe just grey =) Gonna buy curtains =) Not sure if i can get two layers.. =/ if i can, i'll get a thicker white, and some darker color.. So that i don't block the sunlight completely =)Wanted to invest in a sofa bed in my room so the maid could sleep on it too.. =) But seems like the space is simply too small.. Not sure what i can do with the room... other than curtains and wall... Hope the room will be more modern yet cosy, and comfortable... =) Hee..

Moving house!

2010-09-07T10:03:00.000-07:00

Finally, after years of discussion, today is the day I'll be movin into a new location, a new house, a new room. Gonna be an official queenstownian as of today.. :) but it does get a litle sentimental and emotional as I do my packing. I'll be posting the pictures of my room soon :) just for the fun of it.

As I wad packing my room and my stuffs, it felt as if some memories were thrown away, some, were kept In a box, moving over with me to a new location. But the thought of leaving this place I grew up in is kinda complicated. I feel excited and happy at the fact that its gonna be super convenient for me in ministry and study aspects. (but I'm graduating in 2 months time.) But I'll be leaving the streets where I walk with several people. Or maybe I had a journey with many people in this area, thus this feeling..

I remember walking from TP to supper or dinner, and back to my house area; some ran after the bus all the time, some companied me home, some talked with me at the bus stops of tampines for hours, the macs I had all my shepherding In, some I cried with at the coffee shop... And I'll be leaving all these behind...

It feels like a new life somehow. I guess this is one of the biggest change in my life this one year.. New group, new residential area.. But if this is my greatest endeavor, that would be extremely wimpy. One day I wanna go overseas too. I really gotta get used to all the discomfort of being in a new environment.

Anyway, I liked hw I suggested my room to be decorated. More could be done though. And I wanna learn a few things.. I saw something at ikea that I wanted to use. But I gotta drill holes and screw wires... I hv no idea hw to do tt.. But I really want to learn to do it. It's a useful skill! Haha :) then I can do all my own decorations. There's a great sense of accomplishment when you decorate your own room really!! :)
So yeap.. Gonna miss tampines and the people..

Recently I felt really accomplished having completed projects consecutively. It was really hard trying to focus but still finally completed it. I really thank God for blessing me with success. I like the feeling when I accomplish something! It really feels awesome. Heh heh..

Bella's going overseas tomorrow! Wish her all the best in her journey! Words cannot express my appreciation for this person and how this person has left footprints in my life.(real sweet ones) And words cannot express how muchGod loves you. Remember the encouragement cards wrote? 'Lets see each other at the end of the race, before the gates of heaven!' Don't forget this and let's finish this race as well as we ha e started! :)

Zhiyang and Joel's enlisting in a few more days time! It's been really great to have Zhiyang serve alongside in drama for these 2 years... You are really an awesome fellow colleague in the ministry and a really seeing and generous brother! :) thanks for sharing the load with mr bro! Continue to shine wherever you go! Your dreams in God for drama and pastoral will come true in God. Never never never never give up!! :) thanks for the joy! And hang on when u're in army !

Even though I don't serve with Joel for very long.. Probably around half a year? I really enjoy serving with you because you bring much joy to me and many others in the team! You're a really comfortable person to chat with and serve with.. Thanks for such an awesome timetogether and for your willingness to be open.you're par of what makes drama a better place. But God makes it the best lol!!

Thanks for all these footprints and even more people.. ;) love you all~ thanks, G.

Arguments.

2010-06-21T09:33:00.001-07:00

Been arguing with my mother over where my maid should sleep these few days. Well, it wasn't heated. But obviously, i don't understand what her concerns really are... Now the maid is sleeping with me in my room. And my brother's moved out. So that leaves my parents, my sister and her husband, me and the maid. There are 4 rooms in this house. My dad and mum in a room, my sis and her husband in her room, and me and the maid in my room. Finally, my brother's room empty.

So for the past few months, my mum was reluctant to have her sleep in my brother's room because my bro actually just moved out say, 1-2 months? She's afraid he'd be back to pack, and anytime he will sleep in his room. But his house is now done. And that leaves the room empty. There used to be a com in my bro's room that my mum can use, but now, it's spoilt. So she uses my lappy to play her games.

To be honest, i miss my privacy. I'm usually home around late night after i finish all my stuffs... And my maid sleeps at 10..... meaning i can only have my bed side lamp on when i'm home to use the computer. I can't pray in my room, so i have to go to my brother's room to do all these things. And i don't like it. Because it's not my room! The way i see it is, what is the point of holding on to an empty room with nobody living in the room? If there's nobody, why can't we have the maid sleep in there?

True enough my bro's room is better than my room, because mine's a super single bed, and my bro's is a queen sized bed. But, even if she's a helper, doesn't mean that she should sleep in a less luxurious bed... in what way does it spoil her? And making me sleep in the new room with a queen sized bed doesn't make me happy. Because it's not my room. Everyone wants to return to their old room unless needed to move. I don't see the need here that i should move! So that's my point of view. So i asked my mum why not.

Her reason? Bro might come back someday after packing his stuffs and sleep. Wait a few months at least. Granted. So now i request again, her reason? I think she prefers to sleep with you. She's afraid to sleep alone. Scared to be raped *laughs*. and, if she sleeps in this room, i can't use this room to do my things...

In the afternoons, sometimes my mum will put the baby to sleep in this room, but nowadays, it's always my sister's bed cause the baby is kinda picky now. And she doesn't use the room in the afternoon except at night to play comp games. Then if it's just comp games, she can play in my room. Then she says my room is hot and stuffy... And i told her she can on the aircon and the fan if she finds it stuffy. In the end, she says,'if u want u ask her to move over lor...' *unwillingly* and she mumbles something after that... that is not an agreement, is just an unwilling comment.

My 2nd sis asked me too why don't i seperate room with the maid since there's an extra room...

Hai~ If she doesn't want the maid to sleep on the bed, then she can let her sleep on the floor with her mattress -.-" Since the maid is sleeping on my room's floor with mattress... And if she wants somewhere at night to dwell, she can dwell in her own room with her phone games. Wanna use my lappy? Go to my room... I think all these reasons as compared to my privacy is non-comparable. Turning an empty room into a night leisure room and therefore i can have no privacy is really outrageous. I want to use the things in my room at my time... really... it's not like there's no room... so i think wad i'm suggesting isn't selfish!

I don't know... i think mum is just looking at the room thinking of my bro... i think she thinks the maid sleeping here isn't worthy? I don't know.. but i don't understand. And i think it's not logical really... Isn't the past few months enough?

Gosh, i really cannot make sense of it all... it's really frustrating... Sigh~

It's not about the room anymore. But it's about seeing me more important than the room. My privacy more important than the room i guess.. Rar~

An experience during CG

2010-06-03T08:39:00.000-07:00

I am really encouraged today. Care group hit an all time low of an attendence of 4 today. Including me. To me, it's not the lowest lol. So i wasn't that affected. I went ahead to hold cg anyway because i think cg is not just about numbers, it's experiencing God as a community together =) And i was struggling inside though, wondering how i can encourage the people and make this caregroup a WORTHWHILE trip. I believe that nobody wants to waste their time going to a caregroup that doesn't bring any value, and is not worth the trip. All the more so for christians who aren't strong in their faith. We want people to come for caregroup with excitement. It's nice and great to have full attendence, but even more awesome to have people who are excited to come together to fellowship together and to meet God and give. =)

I'm dreaming of that day to come, where NP Business School will have an awesome caregroup for a long long time. Even without me there... they have thriving leaders who have an awesome r/s with God and brings their group through fruitful sessions.

Today, for caregroup we had dinner. Then i suggested we play a game. I got everybody to write down top 10 facts about themselves. And i as the game master will say some facts. And the rest have to guess whose fact does that belong to. Apparently. And! Two of the many facts are 1) I want to get married at the age of 25-28. and 2) I have a pact to go matchmaking with my friend at 27 years old. This is somebody else's fact (Please don't go probing who, it's covenanted). And they guess is me... -.-""" AND ITS NOT ME!!! lol, but i find it funny... =) Though not everybody agrees with what i do, but i'm glad i did it anyway. =) Linhui really encouraged me a lot. She said she learnt more things about her cg member today through the activity.

Also, she shared to me through worship today, she experienced something very different. She said caregroup was GOOD. Worship was GOOD. She said during worship she heard a lot of people singing but there were only four of us. She even opened her eyes to check. But she didn't feel scared, instead felt very calm. She described the singings of the 'many' melodious =) I believe that's the Holy Spirit, and maybe even God's angels singing with us =) But definitely, God visited me. And i believe God visited her =) And God is with us =) I was really very encouraged to know that she was ministered. I have to admit, worship leading is not my forte. Because it's about God's presence. Nothing that i do to make communication better to the people or creativity will improve anything. Though my life isn't all that awesome, God is gracious to His people. That He let us experience Him even though we are undeserving. I hope the other caregroup members present there experienced it too.... and i hope that the rest who didn't come will know how awesome God is and come excitedly next week to experience too! =)

Returned the lost cardholder to the person at her house! She's a design student at TP. I'm glad i went the extra mile. I wonder if i can befriend her ;) And let her see God's goodness in my life from there. =D

I really feel that my today has been a great one! I enjoyed today as it is... =) Thank You Lord. =) I am grateful so much for this day you have made for me. =) It's meaningful to me. I hope my life will continue to be exciting and growing more in God!

Results are out!

2010-06-02T23:28:00.000-07:00

Yes Yes!! I am here to report my results!! Praise the Lord, He has guided me through again. =) 2.5 years of university life really isn't easy to go through. And now, i'm successfully over with my 2 years of university life! 1/2 a year to go! Final semester. This semester was hellish... My advanced marketing and concept application during the paper was a total flop. I couldn't recall a thing when i was writing my essays because i totally can't remember much. I thought Marcomm was a sure pass considering i've spent quite a fair bit of time on it. And a just pass for my service quality. To be truthful, i was super distracted throughout the studying process... I couldn't memorize a thing and i was usually doing anything else but studying because i just couldn't focused. (I was more den often staring at the notes. Seldom read my textbook)

Did i say, on the day of my service quality. I have no idea what came over me, but i didn't read the textbook. I just kept reading the notes that the lecturer has given. When i reached, and i saw my classmates reading and flipping their textbooks, i got such a bad shock. I thought that for sure, i'm gonna die. So i just flipped through my friend's MCQ and went in for my paper.

For my Advanced Marketing, i remember forgetting to bring one of the reading list to read through on the bus. And mind you, it's reading list. Meaning i don't really focus on it. And i saw my friend on the bus. She suddenly asked me a question 'You remember the Mckenzie model?'. I was totally clueless and realized i forgot to memorize that chapter! Last minute, we saw another friend studying at the lobby, so i borrowed her notes and only started to memorize there and then. An 18 mark question on that came out.

I keep telling the people around me, this time, i'm sure gonna fail at least one module. Bcus i have to admit, i wasn't as reliant on God as i was throughout the previous 3 semesters... i was getting tired of studying so much... But... God's love is unconditional. He blessed me with His grace. I really want to thank Him. Just wanna let all who are following christ know. Don't always put yourself and what u think you want first on your list. Put God in your A list and put Him as priority. God never shortchange. =)

Here are my results:

Service Quality: Distinction
Marcomm: Pass
Advanced Marketing and Concept Application: Credit.

I believe if i had focused more(personal problem - can't absorb, utube and facebook), i'd have better results. But i know faith in God brought me thus far. =)Don't be skeptical about God's work and Him. Serve Him with all your heart =)

Oh, and my dad struck lottery, so he said to sponsor my driving lessons!! =D I have applied for a provisional driving license and my first lesson is on the 11th June. ;)
Haha, i always felt how come ppl around me always strike lottery i dun have. Well, God did it for my family now. =) Tithe people... because God can also bless you ten folds =) But give because u love and trust God, knowing that all these belongs to Him. =) When our heart is fully committed to God, we will see wonderful things of God. When we persevere in God, we'll see His promises come to pass. Only, DO NOT GIVE UP. yea?? =))

Somebody's truth set me free this week =) I wanna have a new lifestyle and restore my newness in God... My youth is limited. =) I wanna achieve greater things! God bless me! and God bless all of you!!! =) You will see God's promises made to us all through the Word of God. Claim them, persevere and see!!! Galatians 6:9 'Do not be weary of doing good, for at the proper time you will receive a harvest.'

3rd paper on its way!

2010-05-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

Woo! I'm down to the final and last paper.. wow, today was a really worrisome paper. I couldn't memorize or get anything in my head for this paper. The days just gets tougher and tougher, studying gets harder and harder. And the more and more inconfident i become. Today after exam, i really can tell i'm almost at my limit of remembering things. LoL, i'm trying to reboot my mind to 0 so i can contain more of what i'm going to study now. And tonight, i'll have to burn some midnight oil. Because there's too much to study and i've spent too much studying for my previous 2 papers... so... though i've memorized some of the slides for this 3rd paper... i'm like restudying because i can't remember anything.. Heh.. jiayou bah chan peixin. LoL

Today's paper is God's blessing. I wouldn't say i feel super confident over passing or even getting a good grade. In fact, today, i didn't really sense God's presence like i did my first paper.. I prayed, prayed and prayed before the paper. When i flip the question paper over, i was CLUELESS. lol, i had totally no idea wad the questions were asking for and i couldn't remember a single thing i studied. So i just prayed that Lord help me through this paper to remember bit by bit.

And throughout, i was really struggling a lot, and like a lamp unto my feet, God just helped me through bit by bit, little by little as i write... I didn't get full marks. I forgot some, but amazingly, the information that i scanned through dozen of times, i remembered none, but those i scanned through once or twice, i remember it clearly... =) I know it's God's grace... Though i was really disappointed with myself. As i reflect and look back, i should really be grateful to God for what happened today, because though i couldn't sense, He's still there, and He faithfully helps me...

Prov 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight

My new sheep shared to me this verse also~ =) Apparently and ironcially, her name is Priscilla Fong. Haha..same name as my current buddy, one of my other self-proclaimed spiritual buddy - Priscilla Foong Yu Yan, and my first sheep in PolyDINs (not my sheep anymore). Haha.. =)

God never fails... =) As a once excellent striving student, i would say the question today is: Do you want As? Or do you want God? =) If you can straighten out your thoughts on this, you'll find your answer to conviction and faith =)

For me, i want God, and i never gave up on hoping what the 'A' in my cert could provide for me.. don't understand? =) Simply, i want God because i know for sure what the good results of my cert could provide for me, God can provide for me the exact same thing. =)

Thank you Lord for today =) Pray that i can really continue to do well this sememester! =) I'll say the reason for my motivation for wanting to do well after i grad successfully =))) heh heh. Keep yourself updated!

2nd paper

2010-05-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

This is the final week of my exams, and there are two papers this week waiting for me to finish. And now, i'm still mugging for my 2nd paper... Truth be told, the longer i study for this degree, the more i find it hard to absorb the things taught, the harder it is for me to memorize things... i think my brain power really deteriorated... This semester, i don't feel any more confident than i am last semester... I feel all the more in the deep pits, and flipping over the notes over and over again, i pray that God will somehow help me through for this semester as well.

Looking through my 2 years in SIM, i've really been through quite a number of things. I really hope that through this university life, i'll really grow more... and i wonder, have i really grown? I really ought to reflect on this after my exams.. =)

Haha, i still believe God that when i trust in Him and continue to have that confidence in Him and pray to Him, God will guide me through. By his grace. Not by might, nor by power, but by the spirit of God. I can testify that my exams and my results are all through the spirit of God as i give my best to study. The spirit is the one who has helped me through my exams. =)

And i'm glad to say, i'm looking forward to what life can be in future!! =)
Haha, Xiaoying challenged me that if i get a HD this sem, she'll get me anything i want. Sounds kinda kiddish lol... but i'll take tt challenge.. Bu Na Bai Bu Na. Why not take since she offer rite lol!! And i also challenged her that if she got a HD, i'll get her a ticket to Taiwan! And she can travel with me and jacq and other friends!!! =)) I mean it okay lau xiao ying =) You deserve a holi =)

Hahaha! I'm really waiting for Taiwan next year March!! =))) I want to see the sakura... and i want to eat and eat and eat! XD wanna soak myself in fun =))) Also, want to travel to HK again~ =) I want to stock up my wardrobe~~~ T.T I've already had a pact with Jacq! She told me the other day, she can't wait for March. I hope i can really pass successfully!! And be on schedule for that travelling! =)

Father Lord... i want to enjoy this life u've blessed me with =) And i want to do what best that i can do this life as well =) Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I've been here for almost a year.. =) May God extend this school... and do a great work in this campus, to the people, and may the spirit empower people in NP to do this great work of yours =)

Scare the hell outta me

2010-01-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

Family dinner day~ Father's bday dinner but i was considered late!!! I was waiting for my family at the Conrad hotel lobby with Aileen and Clifford companying me (thank God for them) and we chat until 7.50pm den i check my fone... i had 5 missed calls all from my family. But i seriously though they'd be late because i called them at around 7pm and they were still home.. so i thought there would be a jam. But sadly, there wasn't. So my dad was super angry... And actually all along i was at the lobby... and my fone was on silent. So i didn't know they called... Scary.. But thank God my parents didn't scold me or wad lar though they sounded pissed...

After dinner, i was carrying my baby niece and she wanted to drink milk... So i was kinda shy... i'm only 21 years old u noe... so i kinda moved her away from my chest. But i didn't expect that she took another turn to the other side and her head slipped off my hands. SHE SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME!!!! HER HEAD ALMOST SLIPPED OFF MY HAND! I was really scared her neck will break because of that! I was sure she wouldn't fall off though... This isn't the first time le... =( I'm actually quite discouraged and upset with myself... i can find reasons for wad happen and hope i don't get scolded.. i mean i really didn't mean it... but... i wished tt never happened man... My heart dropped when tt happened... -.- Thank God she's fine =) I caught her in time, and her parents were nearby... so they caught her in time also... T.T Kaiyi arh~ Please dun hate me~

That was the thing that scared the hell outta me.

Fav =)

2009-12-31T05:41:00.001-08:00

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Faith Chan is down.

2009-12-31T05:23:00.000-08:00

Though i'm not very keen on spending money, but i really wish to see the fireworks =) It's been some time i've seen fireworks.. =) Yesterday night before i slept, the world started to spin back and forth like the pendulum of a grandfather's clock. I thought it was because i had a long night. But when i woke up, i had a bad headache and the world was still spinning around me. I vomitted into the dustbin right next to me and i fell back to sleep. Had no energy to walk back and forth to the toilet cause every step was a torture. lol... sounds dirty rite... i vomit le den i went back to slp.. hahaha. I woke up at 11+ still dizzy... my mother asked me a lot a lot of questions of which i really wasn't in a condition to answer all her questions. Finally, i went to the doctors. Doctor said i ate something wrong (most prob from the buffet at kuishinbo Great World City). I vomitted what i ate yesterday, vomitted what i had, basically water...

When i went to the doctors, i was in a bad condition, and i wrote down my name. But i waited VERY long... and seriously... when u're dizzy, and u constantly want to vomit... you jus want to get things over and done with. Cause u're outside... My mother saw later tt people later den me went in first. I was seriously pissed... the person made it sound like it's my fault. After my mother asked, she went to find my data.omytian... can they be more compassionate.. i thought to myself... she even commented 'is pei chan xin or chan pei xin?' Cause apparently, i wrote pei xin. But put a chan on top in the center cause i forgot to write my surname. My mother clarified is chan peixin.. den she say 'AIYO, write until like tt' i was really pissed... den my mother said softly like must approach her den she check for my data... she conveniently skipped my name.. as if i'm just coming for a check up. So i replied so tt the woman can hear 'i'm very uncomfortable eh..'

When i went in next, the doctor while checking me, i was really very uncomfortable... very xing ku... i couldn't close my eyes cause if i opened it again, the world will spin... but i wanted to close my eyes cause i felt v horrible.. and it was really warm... Thank God, i believe God let the doctor have compassion... i asked the doctor whether i could get my medication first... and he gladly consented... and i need not wait longer for my medicine. Because there really was a lot of people... but i really was gonna collapse...

Reached home, and vomitted at the drain again. Until i was standing at the stairs, water just came out of my mouth cause i couldn't find the strength to squat down at the stairs... really disgusting to watch but my mum saw everything.. LoL.

Didn't eat much today, but really just teochew fish porridge. A few mouthfuls, medicine, and slept from 12.30 till 5 plus plus.. cause of the medication... Drowsy. And now i'm better =) Thank God... it really doesn't feel good. It feels worse than fever seriously.. Today, i was totally down... so tt explains why i cannot go n see fireworks.. =)

Still, hope everything's going according to God's plan at eveyr moment. God must have a reason.. for everything. The fact that i'm totally down tt i can't attend cg.. i also believe in God for why it happened so timely.. =) WOOHOO!! Move forward!!!

Expensive retreat

2009-12-30T08:23:00.000-08:00

Today i went for dinner with Jianfeng and Edison to chill out. It was a $55 buffet at kuishinbo Great World City. I ate A LOT... I had 6 crab legs, and tons of other food. But i missed out the outdoor charcoal grill!!! omytian! But i still ate a lot. LOL!! The sashimi is AWESOMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEE... The salmon is super nice~~~~~ I tell u, today's the first time i finished an oyster. I HATE oysters... cause of their taste. And today, i tried a raw one... usually i spit them out. Today, finished. WOO! It's actually not bad!! Raw oysters that are fresh. And ate mussels, prawn... =D And their SPECIAL! I finished the entire crayfish mentai! Omytian~ I'm recharged. LOL!!!

Though it was an expensive retreat, i really thank God that God arranged a meeting for me and jianfeng =) I hope he feels loved and rested today =) Yesterday i met with zikang in the afternoon for chicken rice, and the rest for movies.. i hope they've rested well too! =) Maybe God makes me feel certain things for some reason =) Because i've been tired to the max, i wish to bring my people more joy, my sheep some rest to their souls =) Because i love them =) So, that solves one of the question in my head.. =D God really grows us in our experiences. Not for us to fall deeper into it, but so we can use this burden at the right time =)

It doesn't take a spiritual and extremely knowledgeable person to say something clever and inspiring about God. It doesn't take somebody old to be able to see God's work. As i live my day today. I realize, it is the simple faith of the young, the trust in God, faith that is really as small as a mustard seed (really small faith) to inspire somebody, to remind me of God's love, God's goodness, and a passion in God =) Therefore, stay simple in God =) Don't get too complex, because God isn't complex =)

^^

God loves us a lot, really a lot

In a nutshell

2009-12-29T08:55:00.001-08:00

Planet Shaker's - I just want You.

Seriously, i won't lie.. this song makes me feel lonely... lol! I have no idea why. The lyrics is awesome though. =) But the tune of it makes me addicted to it yet sad...

Still.. God is a God of great plans, great joy. God is big, bigger than us, bigger then life, bigger then the sky... =) I recently cultivated a weird habit. I tend to look at the sky when i'm having troubles... because they remind me of how big this world is, how big God's work is, and how small i am...

Let's have greater joy in God, greater and more energy in Him! We only have one life to live. When time passes, it passes. =) HAhaha~ A lot of people have been laughing at me cause i'm older den them... but really... i think 16 and 17 is an awesome age for God's work... For this ministry that we're working so hard for. That energy and burden and that srength. =) I'm a 21 year old who lost my time... 16 and 17 is over for me =) But i'm not giving up =) Because i love.... =) I still pray to see greater things happen while i'm around. I want to witness growth... even when i'm 37, 40, 55 years old... i want to be moving, energetic... =) That's a challenge for me. But i want to do that, see that, and live to see God's miracles and wonders. =) Salvation.
Lasting Salvation.

WISHLIST!

2009-12-29T08:49:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA...

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2009-12-27T08:50:00.000-08:00

You know those times, when you feel all fire and passion has left you. And what is left is just that obstinate belief to cling on to the truth that you know from one book, the bible. That even a single thought that it's not true or that it won't happen is disastrous. Because it means giving up. And those times when you feel lonely or rather, alone in everything you do... And things that should be forgotten and go away, stays... And you don't wanna see a single person... That kind of feeling...

You have nothing... nothing people say, no matter how people talk to you, respond to you... it doesn't help... you cling on to a silent God, you hear nothing, yet you know He's the only one who can do something... that everything around you fades away...

Friends... =) You don't need a lot of them... but trust them... When there's nobody... and you know nobody can do anything... these friends really make a difference... They're the ones who love you so much, they don't wish to be a burden to you. Yet they're willing to give what they have for you when they know something's wrong... They make a difference. And they become a vessel of God's love. =)

Find yourself Godly friends =)

Funny L4D2 experience

2009-12-18T21:42:00.000-08:00

Haha... Yesterday i went street evaxing with the guys... and after that went to have a long lunch at JusAcia.. Clifford couldn't stop eating the ice cream~ and i couldn't sit still!! lol~ At later night, we met up with kaien, zejun, jolene, kevin Toh, Ryan for L4D2.. wanted to let off some steam~ and i had a funny experience...

Towards the end, we were rushing for our last bus... so me ryan and zikang wanted to quit the game halfway. and i forgot there's this new guy who joined us for the game in the lanshop... so i did something v mean... i thought he was a computer and started chopping him with the axe.. and his life dropped from 40 to 20+.. den i figured that it was too long so i shot him with my machine gun... and i quit the game happily~ And ryan turned to me and said aee.. u know that guy is not the computer eh... and i looked at him stunned!! I didn't go back to the game or wad lar.. i dunno who that guy was in the lan shop since there're so many people but i made a run for my life. LOL! I feel so bad!! But seriously i feel so dumb. LOL~~~ So i laughed at how stupid i was~

Oh ya.. another thing i noticed. I talk loud when i am gamin cause i can't hear a single thing!! Lol! Anyway... let off some steam yesterday~

And praise the Lord!!! NPA 1 and 2 has a total of 8 visitors!! I praise God no matter wad =) 1 of them is year 1, 2 army guys, 1 grad guy and his girlfriend are coming =) Hope they are touched by the holy spirit todae!!! =)))

Gonna havoc at Party today~!!! =P

LoVeS~

PRAISE THE LORD FOR MY RESULTS!!!

2009-12-03T00:17:00.000-08:00

Let me share a piece of my results with you!

This semester's subjects (3):

Buyer Behaviour Credit 62m
Market Research Distinction 70m
Distribution Channel High Distinction 80m

WOOO!!! This is my first high distinction! And it's the subject i had a huge disagreement with one of my friend. I wanna thank her as well.. Think i wouldn't have gotten the high distinction if not for her... And i finally got my distinction back~ Though it just barely made it... but it's been one sem since i last saw it...

I really wish to thank God because i know for sure that this sem's results was really God blessed. I checked my distribution channel results after exams, and i knew for sure i wouldn't score well... because i wrote a lot of wrong answers! So i know this high distinction is God given!! God blessed!!! For the rest of the subject i mugged but i know God brought me through every single one of the paper. Without a doubt. This is a miracle! =)

I wanna say that God loves us and his servants. God really doesn't shortchange! When i thought i have given more than i should for ministry and when i thought i'm gonna be a bad testimony of doing God's word and scoring bad for my exams because i couldn't focus well, God proved to me He is higher and He is control =) God never shortchanges! He delights us and gives us surprises. My best birthday present from God this year... is a set of good results =) I didn't do well.. but God did it =) Praise be to God! Hope that this will prove of God's goodness and nature to those who thinks, 'if i do too much ministry, my studies won't glorify God.'... If God convicts you to do that ministry... he will take care of the rest =) Of course, God will not test you beyond what you can bear. He doesn't want u to neglect your studies as well... but sometimes, there's faith involved! =) Have a little more faith and a little more trust. If He convicts you to do what is right for Him, trust Him about the rest of the stuffs =) The same goes for those ministry workaholics, if God convicts you to study and trust in Him for ministry, do the same, trust God =)

WOOHOO!!!! I'm SOSOSOSO HAPPY!!!!! And i was really afraid to check my results this afternoon.. Your grace is enough~ =)

2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Amazing Tuesday

2009-12-02T08:38:00.000-08:00

I caught Julie & Julia on Tuesday alone at home. Pris and i wanted to catch it after our work, but the movie's already over. Really wanted to watch the movie... think cause i saw amazing food. LOL! But i find it really interesting. Amy Adams and Meryl Streep[I'm not sure how to spell her name] acted in it! So i find the cast really interesting. And indeed, i find the movie awesome for me!!! I like it! haha~

Have been working every day, and 2 days without pay as well. The project requires me to complete the survey in order to earn $15. But i've so far only been able to complete one survey. And i've been working the rest of the time for free, and not effective or accomplishing anything...

Thank God i have another project that im working on for my work, so i still have income =) Anyway, loved Julie & Julia!!!

Today's Pris's birthday!! Happy 21st babe!!!!

Celebrated my birthday with Pris's as well just last sunday~ Thank God for those who took time out to attend though they had busy schedules. And thanks for the faithful pit watchers like Jeremy Xiaoying Meihwa and many others. =) Also to my faithful last minute host Kaien. LoL~ You guys really made my day.

It's true though that many people i wished came didn't turn up =) But i am contented with what God has blessed me with. And i'm glad that those close to my heart really made time out for me... =) I was really touched that day!! To be really honest!!! I've got some real good memories that day of the time i spent with everybody =) A million thanks =)

^^ By the way, our cake was from Pines Garden Cake. BBQ from BBQWholesale! And decorations bought from Tekka Mall top level!! =) They're all good stuff ;)

I thank God for pris!

2009-11-25T01:27:00.000-08:00

Haha... i was browsing one of my friends photos. And i was reminded of the time when Jolene, me and colin went for dmm at vivocity. I tried on the uber high heels at topshop and Jolene told me,'hahaha... the shoes very high eh... all ur calf muscles come out liao!'. And i kept laughing to myself...

Oh yea~~~ Praise the Lord! A guy called my mum today and told her that he found my phone at the lanshop yesterday! I felt really weird cause my phone cut off after i called two times yesterday... Maybe i'm over cautious. Just feel fishy... Anyway, gonna collect my phone after work tomorrow at town! And going straight down to chalet matthew event!!!! *Prays hard!*

I went to collect my sim card today at starhub! And i saw karshun, matthew [Karchun's elder brother] at Swatch working! What a coincidence! haha~ Kinda happy to see him... it reminds me of the old times when all of us were serving together... with xiaoying, and the older batch. =)

Wanna thank God for Pris! Really thank God to be celebrating birthday with her~ =) There're little arguments and i really had fun planning birthday with her or else it would have been planning all these things alone... =/ Thank God for bringing me to her and placing her in an important part of my life =) Honestly, she showed me miracles can happen in God when we evangelise =) haha~ I'm excited for the birthday to bless the people!!! Hope they'll have fun yea =) Life is short, but some friendships lasts forever... (=

Lost my phone!

2009-11-24T08:56:00.001-08:00

I had a long day today~ working from 12.30pm till 6pm today. After that i went for drama jamming!!! WOOO!!! I love drama jammings~ it's really a time to test my creativity and it really refreshes and excites me for more!! Didn't get shortlisted for christmas drama this year. But i'm not disappointed~! =) I believe in what God wants me to do ma~ =D hahaha~ And i would like to spend christmas this year going through, praying for and witnessing a breakthrough!! =)

After drama, me, lancaster, kaien, zejun went for L4D2! Zejun left earlier for supper with jolene and donald. L4D2 is really quite fun! With the new challenges and stuff haha~ But in the end... i lost my phone =( I wonder if it's because i laughed too loudly in the place den the people not happy with me so stole my phone when they see it lying there or is it cause they just stole it cause they saw it. Sigh~ I'm not that heart pain cause the phone not very nice lar... it's an army phone. but $80 is still quite a lot of money. But praise the Lord!!! I called Starhub and they told me that for people who lost their phone for the first time they'd give a $100 voucher!!! Oh my~~~ I don't know what phone i can get lol. Maybe another cheapo phone. But i need a phone that can last actually. Have been thinking of a new phone. But new phone means lesser church building fund!Tomorrow i'll see how bah. My brother's girlfriend willing to offer me her phone but i feel bad yeah...

My mum's phone is with me but on Sunday it went bonkers. The touch pad couldn't sense anything. The phone just didn't work. So i've no idea why every electronic things comes to my hands and gets spoilt in less den a year or even months. At least my laptop is still faithful to me (=^-^=) Heehee...

I just invited the people i evaxed last week for this thursday's bbq~! I have one person pending because he says he don't know the people there. Hope he can have his car!!! Then he'll be willing to come. Oh man~ I really wanna see more and more confirmations and chances. I've got to be more diligent with God man... =/ 1 personally convert at least by end of this year!!!

God is a faithful God =) He knows the desires of our heart, and knows what's the best for us. Even when time seems to make us more and more weary of our surroundings with everything moving on, God is moving in the right direction. So going to Him works better then going towards our own direction. Loving God doesn't take courage, it just takes trust. Sometimes that courage is just trusts. Courage is the result of trust in the midst of fear and adversity. Even if the world turns dark around me there's God~! =D

Proverbs 3:5-6
'Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.'

I wanna trust in the personhood you've created me to be. I want to trust ur hands =) Whatever desires we have, can be entrusted into God's hands for changing, shaping, and satisfaction by Him even. =)

Jesus reigns~

Success for Thursday matthew BBQ event!!!!!!!!

Ipersonic Test and the end of exams!!

2009-11-10T07:42:00.000-08:00

It's the end of my exams!! And the last paper is really blessed by God as well!! He guided me through! I really think the first paper is the worry only... Anyway! I just did my Ipersonic Test!!! I'll post the results later.. My birthday celebration is postponed to the 29th Novemeber Sunday. So my invitation hasn't start yet.. The plannings can kinda get difficult... it's really an investment to hold such a big party! But i'd really like to bless especially those who serve alongside with me and see some old friends again =) Anyway... it's kinda costly, so unable to invite all~ Forgive me manz~ Anyway! The results kinda interesting lol~

Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.

Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.

Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Mugging mugging mugging

2009-11-03T23:53:00.000-08:00

I just had a spiritual and educational awakening from God... Just had my first paper, Distribution Channel yesterday... I did horrible... Because it was very focused on some of the points... Den i didn't study very detailedly at that... So i didn't answer it pretty correctly... Amazingly, God spoke to me above one of the answer of the question... but cause i didn't have enough faith, i only changed part one of that question to it... Lol... Well, now i know God does give answers when we ask him for it during exams. XD

After the paper, i felt really discouraged really, at the fact that there's a 90% chance of me failing the paper and i'm serious. But i believe in God and the way He does His work.. if this is so, God must be using this opportunity to help me to wake up from my own world... =) I haven't been able to focus to study properly the past two weeks... Took a really long time to settle down really... And now, i'm using my break time to blog since i studied for 2.5 hours. Much more chapters to go!! And spotting questions seriously due to lack of time... But honestly... don't have confidence to spot the right questions... There's still much much much more to study and i'm mugging like mad right now... =) But i want to do my best... I still remember this letter my dad wrote to all his children just a few months ago on his plan to go on a 2 year travel around the world with mummy... Daddy has diabetes and high blood pressure... And his diabetes are affecting his gums and teeth.. Shall not cry because i don't wanna get all emo =) But God really reminded me... I don't want to retain for another half a year and see my parents support me for another half a year... I want to support myself... Still, i lift all good and bad up to God! =) For I can praise in times of good and bad to God =D

Haha... just wanna say... God is good to me =) Cause he knows what matters most to my heart... =) I'm just gonna do my best and honor him with all the best i can give to him.. The results? Sure i want all the High distinctions and stuff... but all these is in God's hands for him to decide... i'll just do my best!! =D

Went for paintball session with the SP and NP potential leaders team. HAHA!! IT WAS AWESOME!!! The pictures are in zejun's profile and facebook. It was seriously fun! I had a whole lot of screaming cause i was so scared the paintballs gonna hit my uncovered fleshy legs and my collar bones and neck and stuff... I really hate pain... But when i got my first shot on my hand... it ain't that painful. LOL! Had loads of fun shooting at the people... Sorry zejun~ I shot ur finger... But WOOHOO!!! I shot someone. LOL!!!!!!! Opps... But i thank God so much for placing a group of fun-loving people in my life =) And a caring leader as well~ Thanks Colin, Zejun, Jolene Lau.. =) God bless ya all!!! It's been some time i had played something so exciting. LOL!!! Next time, i wanna aim at Xiaoying Valerie Priscilla and Ezri Chew. LOL!

Praise u my Lord!!!

Outreach.

2009-10-16T10:51:00.000-07:00

Haha... yooo... taking some time to blog right now. Tomorrow's the Bittersweet ESS! And i believe strongly there is spiritual attacks. Tomorrow, is our NP's prayer walk. I'll be opening, and Jolene wrapping up. I just came back around 12pm from evangelism starting at 6pm all the will till 10pm. The NPA1 Guys gathered for caregroup today, and we are to evangelise in a different way. We wrote a short note on post-it pads and had it stuck to the back of the card. It was a personal invitation and wishing for the person to come for our special service. Afterwhich, we will not force the person to listen us go on and on, but instead, we'll ask them a few questions and pass them the cards and told them to contact us if they were interested. We situated ourselves at Dhoby Ghaut and Plaza Singapura. Some went to Grand Cathay and some went to Paradiz.

The determination of the group members are really strong. They are self-motivated and willing. I'm really proud of every single one of them =) Great job guys! Me and Joel were a team and we managed to get quite a number of NP people and even caught one of his friends! And we had one confirmation from his friend at PS area!!! Praise the Lord!!! We pray that God will make it possible for him to come! =)

Later on we rushed back to NP because FMS was breaking camp at 9pm... but they released earlier... they left at 8.30pm.. so we didn't manage to catch them... Still, we continued to approach whatever little people we see... And me and Clifford managed to grab this remaining Year 1 guy from FMS Mascomm!! And he told us he'll try his best to come down tomorrow!!!

To be honest, i'm filled with faith how God is going to work this time... I truly believe He's going to bless us in this ess. That He's with us... That He's watching and His hands are upon us..

My exams are reaching in two to three more weeks... As i type, i'm actually feeling the pressure... There's much for me to do, and also studies to cope... And moments ago, i was tired to the brink that my body just had a muscle cramp... to be exact, my right side of my body... my hands, my legs... but my hands suffer more from it.. As i was praying to God, God reminded me to trust in Him and believe in Him. I told God that I don't want to be a person who preaches for my people to trust in God in their studies and devote their all to ministry, and yet me myself a bad testimony with bad results. And God reassured me, to take faith in Him... to trust.

Just now, i was filling up my water bottle, my right hand could be deemed useless.. it hurt so bad with the weight of the kettle i'm holding... and easily, my left hand supported that weight making it easier for my right hand. God is like our left hand/right hand. We seldom use Him, seldom go to Him, seldom trust in the strength that we are not used to using. However when the thing we're comfortable or the hand that we're so used to using, reached its limit, broke down, you start to realize how limited the thing that u are used to actually is. Yet wad strength wad we've not noticed, and been used to depend on is actually is....

We trust in what we are used to because it has won us some battles... won us some victories... but it is limited... that when at the most crucial of time... when u have a prayer meet tml.. it fails to even meet the basic need... but God, is limitless =)

Last but not least. God spoke to me through this muscle cramp that this pain that i'm going will make me stronger as i endure =) Just like how the bible says

Romans 5:3-5
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

YA-HA!

Straining

2009-09-29T09:47:00.000-07:00

Wow, this is the first week of study week! But yet, i feel unrest.. i wonder is it because of the weather? Still, i'm excited for an upcoming church project... because i really wish to see a breakthrough personally, and also wish to see a good piece done... There's much on my mind, but really depending on God for it yeah? Because there's no point fearing so much because things in God's will has never failed to happen. =) His ways are higher than mine. I just pray for more and more wisdom, more grace on me~!

Btw, i had a great time with the caregroup in town last week... going for beancurds and chicken rice... haha~ NP people are really a bunch of fun to me... =) Zikang and Huipeng's going to missions this week le!!!! Honestly, i'll be missing them so much~ haha~ hope they have a great time!! and really grow when they are serving God over there... I really pray for God to open their spiritual eyes and relationship with Him even more and even deeper than before! =) I believe that this trip is going to be a lifechanging one for them!

Haha, cheering all my sheep on in whatever they do!!! =) Really hope for God to preserve them and usse them even more =) For joy to overflow their lives ^^ There is none like You yeah?

haha~ random rantings~ Love you Lord~

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2009-09-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

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Coolest days

2009-09-04T10:01:00.000-07:00

I wanna give thanks for many many things~ Two days ago, i spent a day finishing my marketing research project findings segment alone!! =) Of course, not totally alone, but i organised the researches... There were about 6 articles and journals to read through.. And i tell you, i hated details and reading these kind of bo liao stuff! =/ Just not patient enough lol~ But i did it anyway.. within a night, God did a miracle, i finished it up~ =) When i finished it the next day, i was so so happy! Because i knew God brought me through. There is no way for me to finish it considering how distracted i was at every page of the research. LoL~ (Imagine if i had 100 pages per research, and distraction time was 15 mins per page). After i finished my research,i went on to finish my pastoral stuffs, i mailed out the letters that my sheep had written to fellow caregroup members... And when i was walking to the post box with the letters in my hands, i just could feel the love of those letters from the writers to the recipients... And i'm so touched by what each of these people, miaoxin, bingsheng, zikang, jonathan, huipeng, josephine did... =) You guys are totally awesome and i give thanks for what you've done for the people of God =)

It was a super cool day!! Another day was today!Today we watched 'Facing the Giants' as a caregroup together. An awesome movie... i was really moved myself by the show. I really learnt a lot of principles... All in all, we learnt to 'prepare the fields for the rain' and 'trust in God' and to me 'Don't Quit. Blindfold yourself and walk on if u have to!'. Thank God for Jonathan's mother, she's really a loving woman.. i really look up to this lady who's rather small in size as compared to me... for her loving attitude towards people. She rushed home at 6 and finished buying and cooking everything by 6.45. She prepared pasta for us, and even gave us desert... And offered us cookies that taste so much better than the ones i make =/ Such talent... Anyway, Thank God for this amazing loving woman! May she be blessed along with her family, and may she be healed of her arthritis! =) Such amazing character...

And not only that, what's so cool was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! An irregular member came to our CG!!! Whilst most couldn't make it today, there was an unexpected guest! And not only did he come, he stayed THROUGHOUT. And he shared with us about the movie! And he enjoyed himself! =) I'm so excited and happy when i saw him! =) It's really so so so cool... But no matter what, i will not take this life in my control or within 'my numbers' but he is God's soul and may God bless him and keep him =) I will let God decide~ =)

God is an uber uber uber cool and loving God. NOTHING is impossible with God! =) There's nothing that God cannot do =) Love ya =)

Update~!

2009-09-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

Update!! Haha~~ I've been rushing for my projects, but i tell you, it's really information overload~ =) There's a lot to be done, but i really want to do my best. Two years ago, i was squealing at such a time, hoping to step down, making noises of how stressed i was. Half a year ago, i was believing in God, with lesser complains, yet i was anxious. Now, i'm trusting God and wanting to do my best for all my projects =) See what discipline does to us!

Wanna ecourage all that
Hebrews 12:11
No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

UH HUH~ See that? Peace!! See that?? uh huh~ Got Rocks~ Woo~ God Rocks~ Yea~ *Rap*
hahaha~ I'm now peaceful~!!!!!

Something i wanna say is, really want to see my shepherd happy =)) To see her enjoy God every day, and receive the best blessings. Shepherd, i never told you how much i loved you as well.. But i really do =) My love for you is that i wish to see the best for you. Regardless of my own carnality and competitive nature, i wish for you to have the best... Wish for you to have loads and loads of joy and that you'd never miss out on God's work. Because i know the best gift to you is not a problem free life... but a life flooded with the purpose in life and being involved in God's commission! I'm praying for wisdom for you everyday! =) Be courageous and do not fear, be faith-filled and go forth and be a City on a hill! =)

Love forever,
Faith =)

Haha, a rare post indeed.

2009-08-08T10:10:00.001-07:00

Wooo! I'm back to this dead blog to liven up things a bit.. lol~ School hasn't been easy this term with much awaiting me to face really... Been engagin in this book by Jon Ortberg, 'Love beyond Reason'. I think i've found my favourite author! Jon Ortberg's books never fail to refresh me...He said in His book, 'Followers of Christ need to do what is right, that includes being honest to the person who hurt you though it may be easier to share to somebody else.' It's really a rehma word for me this sem. I believe that doing what is right in God is enough to keep me a clear conscience.

One day when i was reading the book, Jon Ortberg reminded me about spiritual attention. All of us have a spiritual attention deficit. We always yearn for attention, that's why as a baby, we depend on the face looking at us to know what our parent is thinking about... when they no longer smile at us, we try to make them smile... (Still while we are babies) When we grow up, we yearn for somebody who can give us undivided attention, whose eyes can contain us. Then, we found God. The one who gives us undivided attention... However, he went on to talk about giving attention to other people.

In the book of Matthew, you can see the miracle whereby Jesus spit and made clay and applied it on a blind man's eyes. Then the pharisees rebuked Jesus that he did not obey the Sabbath. Because making clay is considered as work in the olden days. To keep Sabbath, it is a day that we're not supposed to work... And they used this as one of the reason that Jesus is against God's laws...

Jon Ortberg said this... the blind man had been blind for 30+ years(Can't really remember how long, but ever since he was born)... for a very long time... The people of the olden days have a doctrine believe... that it is because the family sinned, that's why the children pay for the sin, or that the man had sinned against God, so this was his punishment... So the people of the city, and the pharisees see him as 'he deserved the blindness'. Every day, people walk pass him, without noticing him. In fact, if u read clearly, nobody knew how long he was blind... But Jesus noticed, and Jesus healed him... On the Sabbath.

This passage shows one thing, compassion and spiritual awakening. While the pharisees saw these, they saw the breaking of Sabbath law. And a sinful man going through what he deserves. But Jesus saw compassion. He had loved the blind man, that's why he healed him. He saw life. and love. It was love in action. The pharisees were spiritual blinded.

What is more scary than spiritual blindness, is refusing to see...

That night after caregroup, as i was at the bus stop waiting to go home after my dinner, i saw this homeless indian man on the streets... He had swollen legs. I believe he suffers from tyhroid. (not sure how to spell) But his legs were big... bigger than normal... He was old, and staring into space. I looked back at him several times, and remembered this passage about the blind man... so i turned and wanted to share the bridge diagram to the man. I asked him, 'hi, sorry, are u free? I would like to share something with you...' At first he was alright with it... but the next moment when i took out my paper and pen, he left... he didn't want to hear wad i was about to say. I don't know why... probably intimidated by my approach because he doesn't know what i want to share... but, i wished i could share to Him about Jesus. The Holy Spirit didn't prompt me because he was another potential number in church... but because i sensed that Jesus loved Him.. not me. Jesus yearns and longs to heal Him. Not me... I simply saw Jesus's shadow from that man... not that he's like Jesus, but because of Jesus's compassion...

I'm moved... moved by Jesus's love for humanity... that's why i serve, that's why i share... not because of a strong miracle sensing in my heart that he's gonna convert.. but i'm burdened... =) burdened by people who don't know Jesus can save, can heal... What about us? Why are we serving right now? Do we have eyes of compassion towards people? Compassion and results do exist together actually.. =)

Uber Cool

2009-06-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

My next best pal - Josephine. LOL! I've been spending so much time with her lately!!!! But thank God for the time still! Today, we went to NP to scout the land... and she shared christ to a non-believer. Even though only shared to one person, it was really fruitful!! As we go onto this new land, i really believe that we need to give our best for the land we've been placed in. This week is really intensive sowing and recollecting of contacts. We need to move, even when the waves and winds are against us. Because if we don't move, everything is just going backwards. The NP-ians are having their common test this week, and now we're left with the next three days to do whatever we can to know more people =)

Matthew event is next week wednesday!! I'm really so excited! Haha, they've really come up with a great prize giving method that makes me really so excited!! LoL! Await my next posts to reveal to you. Am really excited with a lot of things packed in store for us! Things are gonna be fun fun fun!!! God's kingdom should be fun and glorified! =) Christians aren't boring!!! ^^

I really thank God for placing me in NP. I really found a lot of nice food to eat there as well. LOL! I ate the sandwich there todae! Josephine introduced me to this bread shop that makes their own sandwich. I really love the sandwich honestly!! =D Food is my favorite~ LOL! No matter where i go really...

Hurhurhur, i can't wait!! To see people flooding the matthew event, and large turnouts for the coming ess!! =) The ocean is still calm and cruising, as i adapt to the many changes in my life, but i wonder how long this will last. Still, i want to walk on water... till i see the end goal, and reach it! I pray i will never look down!

Last Saturday during service, as i was praying to God for a new conviction and a vision, i felt a little difficult to focus. But i really pushed myself to desire for God's voice... because i can't move without his vision! And God gave me a picture... He showed me a picture of the entire landscape of NP, and there were rays of light shining onto the different buildings in NP... It was truly magnificent and beautiful... I asked Colin what this meant... and he told me that light in the bible means 'hope'. And Colin shared to me and Jolene about his personal conviction about doing the work of God faithfully, and He will do the rest... Jolene also shared that she really believe God is going to do something in the campus! I personally sense God's hands on the campus, that God has never given up hope nor stop watching over the school. Salvation is for the entire school. God has never left, and he is still watching over us... That we can hope in Him that something great will happen... I'm still asking God is it that God wants us to have a caregroup in every building! =) I'm really excited to find out more about what God showed me... =) But i pray for revival.. For protection as well for every single souls in the campus right now. We want to grow strong in quality and quantity. =)

Gambatte!

TESTIMONY TO SHARE!!!

2009-06-04T11:46:00.000-07:00

I'm SO SO SO SO SO THANKFUL!!!!!!!!!!!! I got back my results for my exams!! Remember my past posts of how impossible it is for me to pass all my four subjects? I passed them all!!! I got 2 passes for my business stats and prices and market, and 2 credits for my law and MANAGEMENT ACCOUNTING (which is really a shocker and unexpected subject to have scored). I'm really so filled with thanks and conviction of how God moved during this period while i was studying. God really slots in wisdom as we continue to do our best during our studying... He will give us the understanding that we need... That is really what happened to me!!!! God thank You SO SO MUCH!! And now i can proudly say this!!!!!! It is possible to serve God in your ministry(pastoral/external) during exams!! And you can still do it!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Runs around* So it's true!!! When God says as we serve his house and build his house WITH Him.. He will bless the rest of our needs and worries... It's true it's true!!!

Today i had shepherding with xueting. Was Shepherded... and really tired physically right now~ But went around shopping for her dress.. and i'm really so excited to see the great singapore sales!!!!!! I bought 2 slippers from M)phosis for $17.30!! Now M)phosis is having 50%-70% sale! So gogo! And now walking around to look at sales and buy good deals!!! My favorite sentence now: Good deal Good deal! haha~ After that went to Miss Clarity and tried the mud ooze for the very first time!! It's nice!!!!!!!! Wanted to stay there for dinner but figured it was too expensive.. so wanted to go back to Plaza Singapura to eat the Nasi Lemak in the basement... Since we have $1 off.. but den hor!!! Too full after eating desert... so went for shepherding at paradiz centre's macdonald... until 9+... and we realized... all the shops are closed!! I was craving for steak... so we checked out several places but they're all closed! Guess where we landed up? CAFE CARTEL!!! The price is more expensive than Miss Clarity.. regretted not eating at Miss Clarity instead... Was really interested in their Fish Cordon Bleu... $12! Haiz!!!!!! Went to Cafe Cartel to have their steak instead.. It's not fresh... =(

GOOD DEAL #2
Cafe Cartel is having 50% off all their snackers and coffee after 9pm daily!!!!!!! So after church service, you know what to do!!!! Snacks include, chicken wings, platters, fries, etc...

After that, we went back to paradiz centre cause xt wanted to play L4D. So we played together easy mode... and we finished within an hour... lol~ So yup... An occupied day... but at the end of the day, i learnt one thing that is that i need to have a settled heart to serve God... Or else, we're not serving Him... and that makes all our giftings, all our works WORTHLESS. Because God doesn't look at our achievements or the lists of things we've done, or our resume... but He looks at our heart. Only tasks that are done with out heart for Him is worthy to Him... =) I want to hear more from God to lead my group to Him... to lead people to know Him... I don't want to do all these with an unsettled heart... I really desire His voice.. I've been unsettled long enough i guess.. =)

Farewell

2009-06-01T04:44:00.000-07:00

Woo~ Found some time out to blog... just to update.. haha. Last saturday marks the last service with Temasek Polytechnic group. Now i'm moving on to Ngee Ann Polytechnic to serve there. I really want to take the time to thanks TP Engit girls for doing everything, for preparing the farewell for me... I'm deeply touched by the affirmations you gave me... And i want to thank all of my sheep, Mag, Cindy, Shuh Fen, Samuel, Nicholas. Thanks for singing the song for me, for preparing for me... =) Thanks for the video as well... I really appreciate this group a lot... I will miss you all so much...

Nel, Xueting, Jen, Jenny, Karchun, i'll miss you team of people especially... I served with you all since i was a infant in my spiritual growth till now... You've all accompanied me in the weathers of my spiritual journey with God. Thanks for investing in me and being a part of my life. I've transformed in my living because of you all... I'm gonna miss this place that i grew up! =) Love you guys!!

I'm really excited to be going to new grounds to serve. And i believe God ALWAYS work for the good of those who love Him. He never fails. And He will go before me in everything i do... Hoping for some real exciting things to come along!! Go NP GO! =D

Hey sheeps, really continue to grow yourself whatever it is... Grow yourself into wonderful man and woman of God. Not for show, but to glorify God that He is able. That we are beautiful reflections of Him... May all of you always abound yourselves in love, to spread love to others...

Thanks Shepherd, for all these years of investment. Had you not been patient with me and invested in me unfailingly, i would have given up half way, and i would never have changed... I would still be living in my own world, loving myself. Thanks for bringing me to see the real world of God's that i may love others... =) It's a much better life now! =) I really appreciate you and the things you've done in my life. =)

Really going through some waves now... but i trust God for everything... for my worries and anxieties... For my inadequacy.. =) I want to pray continously so that God may answer my prayer... Amen..

Goodbye to the place i grew up!!! CONTINUE TO BREAK YOUR 100!!! haha! NP will catch up real soon. LOL! Not boasting, but to dream that dream!! =)

A chat under the blue moon

2009-04-30T10:16:00.000-07:00

AlrightY!!!! I finished my business stats paper todae! I will say that it's doable. But whether it's a pass or fail, i'm very uncertain. University is a very different game play. When you think you will pass, you fail, most of the time. When you think you've failed, you actually passed! And they take probably around 2 months, with 1 lesson each week... And 1 lesson is only 3 hours. This semester, 4 subjects. University really needs a lot of independent studying. That makes it so much more difficult... but i really thank God that throughout the whole of yesterday, God really gave me wisdom to understand the topic. From i totally don't understand and don't know how to do, to answering my classmates' questions and doubts... And i have totally no idea how i know how to do... i was still struggling with the basic tutorial the night before... I know the wisdom was so surely God's. Because now, i don't really recall how to do anymore. LoL!

With 2 papers down, 2 more to go. And tonight i'll need to burn midnight oil. Went our to Downtown mac to study with my classmates, but didn't manage to study much and talked. Chatted about their lives... and a little on my life... and i thank God that we took some time to care for each other, chat about funny stuff... Happenings in our life... Then we left for home at around 10.30. When i reached home, i saw my mum alone in her room... I really feel bad leaving my mum at home alone from time to time. And my dad's out. So i just sat with her and watch tv in her room. Then we started chatting about relationships... People's views about it and one of the question is... why can't some people seem to forget that one relationship? They just finds it so difficult to move on...

There was this woman who called in to 100.3 Radio FM this morning saying that she can't forget her first love, no matter how hard she tried... The DJs gave her a lot of solutions but she just kept saying she just can't. So my mum and i was talking about this kind of thingy, and about love itself... Is love really unexplainable?
That when you love somebody, you won't know why...

Then i realized, parents are no difference from us. LoL~ Their thinkings are no different or far away from us... We came to the same conclusion... that how can we love the person who just stands in front of us and does nothing? It's impossible to love someone without a reason... my mother asked me instead... how can people nowadays just love and not know why he or she loves the person? If there's something admirable, den okay... but nothing about the person?? That's what my mum said... So i think, love really isn't just a feeling... there are reasons.

One golden truth that i strongly believe... Why some people cannot move on from their past relationships could be because that their time stopped at that moment... That they can't see reality in the face about the changes in the person, about the character of the person... the emotions are stuck at that moment, when that person loved you and how we felt... that's why it's hard to move on from it... =) So, give it up and see reality... Hard truth~

But all in all, what i just thank God for is just the time with my mum and my classmates... They're so precious. As i talk with them more, as i understand them more, my burden for them to know God increases.

Yesterday night when i was spending Quiet Time. God spoke to me about love... Love isn't given out of the blue. It doesn't fall out of the sky. Try as you may to love someone, you'll still find it difficult... Rely on your own strength? Even more impossible... So i asked God, how to love Lord? When the initial motivation, those initial conviction all these starts to fade away as you reach the 5 year mark of relationship with God? Everything seems so... routine? so... common? How?? The fire?? For an emotional person like me, how can i bring freshness into my life to love people?? And God reminded me this thing...'I Am Love. If you do not know me, you do not know what is love. If you know me, you den can love...' Through God's reign, and His work, we see love... all the blessings, happenings, rebukings and everything, are a manifestation of love. But if we do not know who God is, we don't know what is love... Know God, know how to love... =)

Thank God for every thing and every detail =) His faithfulness, his grace, and how he cherish me and work in my life makes me feel sheltered under his wings... =) Let your will be done =) And my will be smaller...

HOT NEWS HOT NEWS~

2009-04-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

Today i really did quite some work on my studying and managed to catch up quite a fair bit! Equipped with cans of red bull, i'm really hoping to cheong finish one subject by tonight!! But in the midst of it, i went to spend some my quiet time with God. And like always!!! It's really time well spent!

Today, God really re-convicted my heart and filled me to the brim! It was AWESOME!!!! *Screams* As i was praying, God really reassured me that all that we're doing may be limited...God is unlimited. Like a chef, God can whip out a good meal with whatever little ingredients we have!!! Just give him the ingredients! And our every talents, and giftings is that ingredient. Sometimes we feel that the things that we have is too little for us to make a wham bam! But God is able!!! So don't be weary and tired, and let God! There's a saying that i really agree on, and it really happens! At every person's wits ends, is the beginning of God.

God reassured that steadily, God will do His work, continue to give him all that we have... God is never slacking, but He is moving in TP, all parts! Set your eyes on the coming and not the current!!!

Something even cooler! God gave me a new revelation~ =) This time, it didn't come to me as usual as it would. But God spoke to be, that whoever believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

John 3:16 (New International Version)

16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

No matter how weary and how tired we may be, those who believe in Him will never perish, will have eternal life! That when we believe in Him, we'll never die! Not spiritually! We'll have eternal fresh water! Fresh mana!! There's where our strength lies, where it comes from!

Praises to God for convicting me. I really thank God, this is what i needed. He knows me so well =) Thanks abba Father!!!

Thanksgiving

2009-04-21T00:41:00.001-07:00

Woo, exams is just around the corner, so much to accomplish, yet so far away from halfway. Still, i'm filled with joy. Took time to seek God in the midst of my studying. And i'm so greatful to have spend time with God... OH YAR!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCELYN AND MASPOLIM!!! 19th April!!!! Haha, Happy 21st and 19th!!!!! I love ya both~

Recent weeks have been a time when God really asked me time and again,'Do you trust that all things are within my control?'. As i met my human limitations, i saw the beginning of God's great power... That He is able to do all things, all the things that i can and cannot... And He is worthy to follow. Because He never fails. And i'm just a vessel... Today as i was reading the bible, God spoke about something in Psalms 50 which made me think about it for quite some time.

Psalms 50: 13-15
'I don't need the bulls you sacrifice; I don't need the blood of goats.
What i want instead is your true thanks to God; I want you to fulfill your vows to the Most High.
Trust me in your times of trouble, and i wil rescue you, and you will give me glory.'

and it continues to Psalms 50: 23
'But giving thanks is a sacrifice that truly honors me. If you keep to my path, I will reveal to you the salvation of God.'

Though God doesn't need my promise, but we have a covenant that is to receive Jesus as our Lord, and to surrender our lives to God. And that was the sinner's prayer i said, 4+ years ago to him at the altar call... God's love is more worthy than anything or any love anyone could have offered me. God is the perfect lover, the perfect Father, the perfect creator.

And praise the Lord! God is indeed faithful in so many ways. Despite of how busy i was, God blessed our caregroup with a convert! Clarissa from Vet Tech, a freshie, came to receive Jesus into her life! And i find God so divine, so gracious. And i'm so glad that this soul is saved. I pray that she'll one day be greatly used by God and that she can receive life transformation in God, the joy in Him! Nothing beats the utmost highest God and life in and with Him!!

Drama performance was a process that i can't help but thank God, for this privilege to be able to serve. I thank God that He chose me to serve, that he chose me to do all these. Though tiring, it's a joyful process! And the Spirit was with me on the stage, working in me, as i act. And i knew with full assurance when i was on stage, Jesus was in the midst of the audience... I was so nervous, and i prayed that he'd be watching. And on stage, as the lights shone, i could sense Him there... watching everything i'm doing, giving me courage, smiling at me...

As i study throughout the weeks, God is just simply watching over me, and helping me. I know with an assurance in my heart, i'll be fine. Even though i am really lagging behind a lot... 100% man 100% God. I make the choice, because i have the choice. And i go with it, and be responsible for it, and 100% of God will come, when i come to my wits end. I know it's only gonna get better...
=)

I pray that God can be as real to all of em' as He is to me! =) I pray that He'd bring so much purpose and peace into your life =) God is the best~ =)

We're all sinners, but may all sinners, hear this out, nobody is perfect. But turn back to God in repentence, that's the most important thing.

Psalm 51:5-13

My anchor verse: But you desire honesty from the heart, so you can teach me to be wise in my inmost being.

=) We go through the pain as we become honest to ourselves, to people around us, to God about our mistakes and weaknesses, but so that we can learn to be wise in our living, and the decisions, and the ways of God in our inner of most hearts and being. So we won't walk the same journey down the valleys again, but to fly sky high with God. =) There is always two choices!!

Hallelujah!

Giving Thanks

2009-04-15T21:29:00.000-07:00

Heyhey!! I'm back to blog~ LoL~ After a long break! I think this few weeks is one of my most challenging week... considering mental and physical and emotional. Because i'm involved for ESS IBelieve this week! And i'm so excited!!! Still, even though i'm excited, i've been challenged much... because of my coming exams. I'm facing 4 examinable subjects, with limited time to study, and much to revise... haha... but for the past few weeks, i still continued to do what best i can in serving the Lord. Though i have to cut down much on other areas...

Last sunday's service was a really cool time! Many crossed the line of faith into the kingdom of God!! Praise the Lord for that. Forgiveness is really important in our lives i realized... Because God forgave us...

I went from the East to the West last week. It was really tiring, but i think it's worth it... Exams in university is really taxing, and difficult, and i really wanted to encourage some of my classmates... den sun bian invite them to the special service to watch the drama video... so i bought honey lemon and wrote them cards. And delivered to my friends, and one stays in the west. LoL~ But my friend was working, so i just put it at her gate... Though my visitor couldn't make it for service in the end, i still thank God that i did so... Someday, they will receive Jesus into their life. Because God loves them more than i do... more than honey lemon. LoL.

Recently, i've been trying to memorize script lines, and exam notes. So i wonder on the day of performance, will i read my exam notes out instead. HAHAHA. LoL~ choY~ But i really want to give thanks for quite a few people for being there for me at a time like this... And i want to remind myself the reason for serving... God's love is everywhere...

Felicia wrote a postcard to me! So sweet~
The main thing:
Jiayou. Hang on and continue to serve God all the way despite of the difficulties and setbacks you face okay? We are all in these together, so you are not alone. Ni ke yi de! I have faith in you. Exodus 14:4 'The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.'

Cindy sent me an sms! So timely.
The main thing:
Shepherd~ Jiayou for drama! And exams too. With God's grace everything will go well. You can de. Get enough sleep as well don't fall sick.

Nel sent me an sms too...
The main thing:
Hey, i really believe God will bless your study cause you honor him above all. He have to, cause he want to. Continue to give your best to him and he will give you wisdom.

Xueting sent me an sms too...
The main thing:
Sheep! I love you very very much!

All in all, i want to give thanks for these people. I'm not sure whether it's mass sent or not, still God has a reason for the messages to be sent to me, den it's a message TO me... and below all this surface, is God's very love for me... Praise Him always... It's you who make my life complete! God is great! Really excited for this saturday!!! Woo, but i'm seriously nervous... hahaha~ God is my only audience!!!

After camp!!!

2009-03-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

YEA!!!! Camp is over! And it was great!! The girls had a really long chat about the games during camp on the bus... And we talked a lot about the funny stuffs we did in camp. We were totaly random. I had an interesting time getting to know quite a number of the transfers! They're really interesting and funny. Lol~ They really do leave an impression in my mind. Obedient, submissive, out-going and sweet passionate transfers of God. Thank God for their spirit! I really pray that they'll bring more of such spirit as they come into the polytechnic! Methods change, but spirit never changes! Our spirit must remain strong for God no matter how old we are.

Learnt quite a lot for camp but this is not my main point todae... Probably i'll talk about it another day. I am really excited to express to everybody the joy i have for my sheep. I had a good talk with my sheep and i'd really want to say this to my sheep. Go forth and do great things for God. Let nothing stop u! It's about the advancing of the kingdom, so strain towards what is ahead and do not look back! We only have one life to live, one period of time in tertiary. Let's give it our best shot! With everything we've got, let's say NO to giving up. But surge forward with the strength of the Lord. We are created to fulfill the great commission, to accomplish God's will! That's our purpose! And life without purpose is not life in God! So let's give it everything we've got and let's run together!!! I'm proud to heard from you that you want to follow God! And i believe you can too =) Pull yourself together by the grace of God! His grace is sufficient. Let's break the areas of our comfort in the remaining time that we have! Doing whatever little we can do, accomplishing as much as we can in whatever we are given! Even if our presence is the only thing we can give, give it! And bring positive presence into the place! We all can grow in God and can do the work of God! =) As long as we follow God's way. Be able to hear what's on His mind, we are doing the work of God!

Let's run towards the end of the race where our Father Lord is in front. Don't think so much anymore! =)

P.S

Lastly, a letter to all my sheep.

Dear sheep,

Thank you for serving God so hard. And thank you for serving alongside with me. I believe that God will use you for greater things! Every single one of you. I believe that God has something exciting in store for u! Only, do not let the things of this world, become a bondage to you. But surge forward towards God, and strain your hand to reach and touch the Lord our God! He's in front of us, but let us do it and hold on to God even more! Let's guide more people into the presence of God and teach them the right doctrines of God and the right perspectives of life in God's view! I really thank God that i'm serving with every single individual one of you. All of you are so different, yet you all really add on in my life so so much. I just want to say, Give your best to God! Give him all the time that you have, and not leftovers. He is worthy!

And last thing,

Nicholas, Mag, Shuhfen, Samuel, Cindy, I love you all.

Love,
Faith

Disappointed

2009-03-04T06:15:00.000-08:00

Am disappointed with many things... But am holding on to God because it's God's reason why i'm still standing.

Recently watched an interview online with Cecilia Cheung regarding the scandal of her nude photos... From the interview, i really look up to this woman. Lol... I'm not sure whether what she's saying is the truth or a lie... Well, i'm not agreeing that what she did with edison chen was right either. But she's a really strong woman and i admire her for her.

Throughout the years, she didn't voice out anything about what edison chen had done. Because of the scandal, her family is affected. At that point of time when the scandal was leaked out, she had a 7 month old son. She said she didn't voice out not because she was afraid. But because she know what she did was wrong. And it's a punishment she give herself. She doesn't know if this is to make her feel better or what, but she just know that when we've done wrong things, we need to be responsible for it.

She said much about the irresponsibilities of Edison... so can go watch her interview. But ultimately, i think she's really very strong. She said that on the day that the photos were leaked out, she still went out to film her commercial. She already knew what was going to happen. There, she felt very awkward... And after filming, the management told her it couldn't be filmed because of the scandal and her current reputation. She said she expected all these. She didn't say anything...

I look up to this woman. People look to her and blame her much... because she's a public character... Comment on what she has done and every thing... But a group of her close friends and family stayed with her... During Chinese New Year, she felt very awkward... her friends came over for chinese new year... she said what they did broke her heart... all her friends were pretending that nothing had happened... but she's very glad that she has this bunch of friends by her side...

She got hurt, but she stood up and beared through every thing... I look up to her for that really =) The greatness of a person is not measured by the weakness of a person and the mistakes, but the character of that person... in God, it's the trust in God and the holding on of God.

SALES!!!

2009-02-17T06:19:00.000-08:00

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Less than $15 for all their tops and bottoms!

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God is Love

2009-02-15T07:04:00.000-08:00

God's love is so much~

He creates and marks his creations with his love. He shows in all the ways possible His warmth and heart for us =)

Thanks to the Lord for His love =)

Thank God for EVERYTHING!!!!!

2009-01-08T04:07:00.000-08:00

YEA~~~~ I'm so happy i'm so glad!!! The days of daily rehearsals are over! The two dramas are put up already!! And i want to thank God for every thing! For the rehearsals i've been through! Though it was tiring but thank God because i'm involved! Thank God for the period of moulding by God because i learnt new things to grow in, knew more about myself. Thank God for the final production!!!!!!!!!!!! Because it received good feedbacks~ =) I'm glad to be involved in God's work really... What more can i ask than a life that is greatly used by Him? Honestly, i'd love to serve in His big commission! And through this period of one month of 'Holiday' i learnt much about God and his work in my life... Today's post gonna be long!!! So be patient with me!!! =D

Let me share a little about my journey this whole month. I really think that this is a ride with God!! I was really excited when i knew that i would be writing for the 2 services. But 2 weeks before the production, i realized that i cannot decide on a good script or content!! There's so much to write in such little time. And thank God, this whole month was my school holiday. I wanted to really spend some time with my caregroup. But after i took this production. I realized i'm greatly limited... I would return home sometimes too tired to do anything else, and rushing scripts in the afternoon because i was not disciplined enough. I would say, this month, God was gracious to me... really... He helped me through every bit of the production. From the forming of the script, to the directing of the drama, and the inspiration of new things to add... And i thank Him for that...

I had little time with my girls, so all i could do was stay at home to pray. When i wanted to do something, i realized that i had no time, and i've wasted quite some time too to be honest. (I feel ashamed... but got to be honest, i'm still in the process of learning. Still no excuse or whatsoever. Bomb me away. LoL) But i really prayed a lot cause i realized that there were a lot of things i wanted to do but i couldn't do. The bomb came when i had to do a unit drama production before i started to do church productions. And it was the girls' term test week. Talk about stretch... The whole TP Engit's drama team was stretched.

HERE'S A PARAGRAPH FOR THEM!!! PAY ATTENTION TO HERE IF U HADN'T BEEN DOING SO!! Thank you to Sermeng, Darren, Priscilla, Shuhfen, Mag, Jiamin and Mark. Thanks for being such a wonderful team lol! I still remember how we keep practising the 'dance' that seem so difficult. Thank God for Mark's meticulous-ness. You really helped a lot!!! =) Lol~ I really thank God for them. I had a great time with you! And we share an important covenant okay!!! (The secret between you guys and me... PLS!!! My dignity is at stake here!!! Don't Tell ANYONE.) Thanks for making the drama such a success. We really made God proud didn't we!!!

Christmas came! And let me tell you just how amazing God had been to TP Engit girls... I tell you, i admit that we're not really ready for the harvest. There's still much we have to deal with... but thank God for that focus... first things first.. God's harvest is about God ultimately, not about us amen? Hee... the girls really went all out. I really thank God for that one prayer meet that we had in the morning. Though some of us were really tired, some late (HORHOR~ Don't feel guilty, next time be on time k lol~) but we experienced the move of the spirit. We just kept praying in the spirit at the amphitheatre in TP. We had no guitar, only a voice. We sang Come holy Spirit. We prayed sincerely for the ground and the people. TP Engit 3 was going to break 20 and hit 30. What madness... we've only 10 people currently! We asked God to do a miracle because God is able, and it's all about YOU YOU YOU LORD!!! Guess what??

for the 20th and Christmas service, we had a total of 16 visitors inclusive of blessings from other campuses!!! 16 visitors in total for the 2 services!! I thank the Lord and is contented. Our caregroup is now at 16! With 2 new additions to our family and we're praying hard for retention!! God's grace is really bigger than these! (Never include conversions from other units or caregroup) Though it's really a long journey, i thank God for what i've been through... because God is sufficient, even when i feel inadequate.. I really felt inadequate in the midst, that sometimes i'm not doing enough... and i even felt at times i dunno what to do. But God is enough for all! =)) Our sole purpose is one Lord, and God promised that He's sufficient for us. I can't thank the Lord enough. This period of time, it really proved what i always believed wrong. I always thought i could made it on my own... Evangelism, production, all these are my forte... This year, much has happened that made me feel that all is lost... I really depended on the Lord for this one year...

Then after this production, i realized i had much to catch up for ministry, and i already feel very limited!! Because school has started. I really have no idea what i could do. But whatever i can do, i'll try to do it... though i won't satisfy everybody, but at least i need to do what God has asked me to do by His spirit to those that i can do to... Life with God as the main character is just so different...

Recently i've been challenged in many areas that i really felt very angry for being commented about for certain things. But i knew i had to be responsible for my own life. So what if i'm angry... Truth is that i did something wrong... I needed to change... Because i'm changing for God... As unwilling as i am, i just admitted to God how unbiblical i was lol... Anyway, testings will come again, i'm sure of it. I want to overcome =) In Jesus name!!! Straining towards what is ahead!!!

Thank God for such a ride really... =) How can i thank Him enough...

Drama team photos for 3rd Jan!!!

Drama team for TP Engit Evangelistic event.

I took this at ECP!! Someone else's rabbit!

My dear niece, Portia!!!

Birthday girls!!

2009-01-02T12:23:00.000-08:00

31st Dec - HAPPY BIRTHDAY KALYNE!!!

1st Jan - Happy Birthday Jiawen!!!

Woo!!! Happy birthday girls!!! Just wanna do a short blog~ Since it seems quite dead... Drama rehearsals has been hectic hectic hectic. But all glory to God for the successes... Tomorrow's the last production... I lift it up to God! No matter what, He's my one and only audience! I'll give my best for Him to enjoy the show!

During last week's drama rehearsal something funny happened.. Jorris came running into America room and asked me if drama team could delay rehearsal for a little late... cause they wanna celebrate Bing Quan's birthday! And asked us to join in too... But i recalled seeing photos of Bing Quan celebrating his birthday during Arete... so i told Jorris: 'I thought we celebrated during Arete?' Then we realized that Jorris had actually got his birthday from Facebook! So knowing that we got the wrong date, we celebrated anyway. LoL. Bing Quan ran away once he came in... We couldn't stop laughing at the mistake we made... Haha~ Still, shows a lot of love going on in the church... and!!! Do not trust Facebook for birthdays and other infos please~ LoL~~~

We celebrated Kalyne's birthday as well as countdown two days ago!! The girls overnight-ed at my place... with Absolut Vodka and Baileys... but we only drank less den a cup. We had no desire to get drunk... Just a little celebration... We watched haunted mansion, a horror comedy... but 70% of the girls fell asleep =__= And the girls left at 11am in the morning... They actually opened the door on their own and left automatically without waking me up. They even packed my room nicely! LoL~ Where can i find such good servants lol~~ Countdown that day, we went to the West side!! Botak Jokes and Ice Creammery!!! Ice Creammery's ice cream cake is definitely a winner!!! Some photos!!

Christmas gifts!

2008-12-15T02:02:00.000-08:00

Hey people! A pretty good site to get your christmas gifts! Very practical lei =) Go check it out. Find it worth the price. Very innovative little gadgets ;)

http://www.myfashionflea.com/

Just a short little post

2008-11-04T22:46:00.000-08:00

Wooo! Exam time~ The first two papers - Marketing and Economics, is over!!! Now i'm left with one last paper, Accounting! This is one of the few times i got so stressed up for my papers... I had actually started my studying 2 weeks before my exam... cause i'm such a fidgitive person, i couldn't stand sitting there for 6h in a row to study. LoL~ Anyway, studying for Marketing was a killer... On the day of paper, i felt nauseous and kept wanting to vomit on my way to school... it was horrible~ I felt so scared for the first time... i really hate being sick during papers... It feels terrible and remembering of what was studied difficult... I wonder if it is because i'm too nervous... I really have no idea what the paper would be like... if i had studied enough? Will it be those essay type which i need to analyze on my own?? I was really really nervous... but kept in mind that whatever the results is... it's all for God and not for myself... And i felt a little better... Minutes before i enter the exam hall, i had a diarrhoea... I was really praying for help from God...

After i sat down at my desk, i prayed as the invigilator said that we could have 15 mins of reading time... After praying, when i opened the papers, i really praised the lord... at the same time i wanted to knock my head against the table lol! Because it wasn't as difficult as i thought it to be... At the end, i left 30 minutes before my paper ended. Praise the Lord!!! =)) I'm really glad i gave it my best shot...Economics wasn't that much of a good news, but i really tried my best to understand and love it LoL... Anyway, i'm glad it's over already... Like i said... the results, are all God's...

This period of time really made me realize that working for God is really much better than working for myself... Actually i felt more stressed, had more expectations to do better when i was studying... Because my project got a distinction, my tests had high distinctions... so i really wanted my distinctions badly... And in the midst of it... i knew i wanted to glorify God the most, but somehow i pursued the results in the midst of it too tightly... When i realize it, most of the time, i feel so stressed up... Because of our human nature, it is common we want the best for ourselves... it's a subconscious thing... we can't deny it... we always want the best for ourselves... so whatever is within out control, we'd do the best... but when i remember to work for God... i no longer feel so stressed... once said... Sometimes we think that we don't love ourselves, thus the love self-esteem... WRONG. Because we love ourselves so much, we wanna protect ourselves from being hurt. We point out our own mistakes before anyone could hurt us. Because i loved myself so much, i wish to give myself the best, but God my best... It's different... but you realize that when you work for the Lord, it's different... not as stressed during exam, not as uptight... why? Because you know God will give you the best... God sees your heart, not your capabilities... He doesn't blame you but your sin... Wow... God really gives us a lot of love... Sometimes, we just know it's we ourselves who made the decisions we make... We choose to do something we enjoy more than what God enjoys...

Christian living isn't difficult, nor torturous... Some people think that we should live like Paul... joyful inside, but painful outside... Some think that God yearns for us to enjoy, so we should enjoy our christian walk... What is right and what is wrong? It's not about what is right or wrong... It's just about following God... Who cares what's right or wrong... you can enjoy your christian life in God as long as you love all your neighbors as yourself... Serve the people always, there's never an excuse enough to not serve... Not even me, i have no excuse...

Recently, i asked God...

'God, i'm afraid... If i walk out of my comfort zone, will you be there when i cry? I know i'm gonna be in huge pain and sorrow... I'd be hurt deeply... Lord, i'm scared... but... will you be there with me when i'm hurt?'

'Yes i'll be there'

'Will you be there when i cry?'

'Yes i'm with you... I'll cry with you and comfort you when there's hurt. You'll never be alone in front... i'm always with you...'

-If God is with you, what you are you afraid of? -

=)) God bless you all ^^

Caregroup on Thurs~

2008-10-01T00:21:00.000-07:00

Heyhey~ We had caregroup last thursday! It's our first caregroup without Serene, Chiamin, Rayna, Shuh Fen. Their presence really is important to us. Without them, it felt as if the caregroup isn't complete... They're indeed so precious... Thank God for His grace, caregroup was still enjoyable! We had our caregroup in the afternoon with just me, mag, lestari and Cindy! Taught about commitment to kingdom! Really learnt a lot didn't we?

At night, we joined priscilla and Kalyne in town and we were late~~~ Oh Gosh~~ They were famished!! We went to Pepper Lunch for dinner!!! Oxymoron huh? Pepper lunch should be for lunch only =/ LOL~ After that we went around shopping! We really enjoyed the time so much! Kaylne bought herself a new skirt LOL!

Here are some photos!!!

Window Shopping At Fox.

S$69. Anyone wanna buy for me? LOL!

Cindy insisted that Pris force her to take photo. *Psst* (You believe?)

Plastics at Ngee Ann City.

Only Lestari's hands are curved... LOL!!!

Cindy and Lestari spoiler. LOL!!! Kalyne is 100% plastic. XD

Fooling Around

A group of people were looking at us opposite ngee ann city. LOL! It's a night with stars. That explains the attention.

HAHA! Look at Kalyne and Lestari!!

The girls have to ban gui lian ( Make an ugly expression) and Kalyne's a cheater bug. LOL!

They forced me to =.=

My beloved sheep =) Have fun in missions okay~~~ T.T *Sobz* Mag also gone.

Saturday the girls caught a movie 'Painted Skin' acted by Vicky Zhao, Zhou Xun, Qi Yuwu, Donny Chen. I love Donny Chen!!! Zhen Zi Dan is so funny in the show. And Vicky Zhao has a really good really good figure!!! The show was pretty interesting LoL! But i think it really shows the unfaithfulness of the guy in the show lei... Haha... Before that the girls had KFC! We really had fun~ LoL~

And Marco!! Happy Birthday!!! =D Sorry we couldn't make it on Sat.... Continue to grow in Christ brother!!!

This week let's continue to create even more sparks nw that the girls are back and lestari and mag are gone. LOL~

Swimming~!

2008-09-21T07:20:00.000-07:00

Yea~! I went swimming with Mag, Lestari, Chiamin, Serene today~ It was super fun! Went for dinner at Simpang Bedok and went down to Ice Cream Chef at Siglap! Fun-filled day =D The below photo is taken when me and Kc were at pasar malam months ago. Promised them to post this... LOL!

Grapevine

Brought the Coreteam to Grapevine last monday!! I ate ribeye steak, medium. The teriyaki chicken is really nice!!! Wanted to treat them to good food!! So here are the photos taken at Grapevine near Serangoon and Kovan. It's just opposite the crocodile farm! The food there is reasonably good. Take it from me, eat their teriyaki chicken wings, it's nice! The main course there however is average. It's not as cheap as Eighteen Chef, but tastes better than eighteen chef. The oreo frappe is alright too... ;) Can try this place out. They sell alcohol too!!!

Lestari, Shuh Fen, Pris, Mag

The teriyaki chicken and oreo frappe!

Fish and Chip!! The Chip is nice!

Forgot what this dish is called. But it's chicken chop with rice! The chicken chop is cooked in red wine! Has quite a strong alcohol smell, but it doesn't have that horrible taste! The chicken is still tender and nice =D

Sheepo and me~

SERVICE - I LOVE HONGKONG

It's service!!! Me, KC, Xueting, Jenny wore the I love Hongkong! Took a photo with Lem cause it's been quite some time since i took photo with him LOL! I'm not holding his hand!!! *Clarify* I'm holding my jacket. LOL!

Swimming

Went swimming today! We had fun~ Took some photos~ We went to swim at Lestari's condo! LoL, i like her swimming pool!!! There's almost nobody at all! And no kids learnng to swim there! LOL! So... Peace~ and quiet~ Mag didn't bring her swimming costume!!! So Lestari lent Mag her shorts and another tank top. Shoosh... She broke the rule by not wearing the right attire to swim. LOL~ Chia min insecured. LOL! So did Lestari. We stayed at the Jacuzzi for ages and went for sauna after that. LoL!

Me and Mag

Me and Lestari~

Me and Pris. I look pregnant =.=

After swimming, we visited Lestari's house! And i used her weighing machine.. After weighing me and Pris... i commented 'Lestari, your weighing machine spoilt?' Lol... Shall not say my weight... But serene assured me it isn't spoilt...

Ice Cream Chef

After dinner we went to ice cream chef to eat desert!!! The ice cream there is nice! The mix in is nice too! It costs $3.10 per cup! And the mix-in is $0.90 each! I ate Chocolate and Hersheys with Kinder Bueno~ Nice! Cm, Pris and Mag ate Orea and Cream! Their mix-ins are: kinder bueno, Granola, Hersheys chocolate chip~ The atmosphere is nice!!! But the place is small... You've got to be lucky to find a place. Affordable! =) Strongly encouraged to go! It's located at Siglap! Take bus 10 to a stop call Aft Dun(something) walk. LOL! Check the internet for exact location ;)

LoL! Cm's face to dark to see...

LOL!!! Look at MAG's FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Really had fun today! Hope we can create more memories together! ^^ This is us Engit 3~ Introducing you nice places. Oh... and i found out CM do eat her meals =X Heehee! ^^ Love the girls =D

HONG KONG LEADERSHIP CONFERENCE PHOTOS~

2008-09-14T04:03:00.000-07:00

HOHO!!! And here are all the HongKong photos that we took!!! Hong Kong LC was a really inspiring trip!! And a lot of fun too! Let the pictures come along with some description!

Photos taken on the plane! Me and Nel playing

That's the sunrise!! Super majestic! But it was super hot in the plane cause the sun was facing us. Welcome to HONGKONG!!!!

This is me and Xueting's room!

We went sight-seeing on the first day! Went to the Space meuseum and the avenue of stars!!!

(Hahaha, Jen's going to be a fierce wife in future...)

Look at that view~~~ It was very windy! It's even more beautiful at night! Though we didn't stay till night. But the cities will light up! And it's a really romantic and beautiful view. *Ahem* I'm with the wrong person in the photo. LOL!

3 Bruce Lees and 1 Stephen Chow (Karchun <-- See his face) LOL!

YEA!! AND WE MET CREAMO FOR DINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's still as fun!! The next day, we went to Ocean Park!! It's a theme Park!! The Roller Coaster ride is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kc, Me and Jolene!!

TP BUSART~~

Tp Engit~

Tp Busart + TP Engit = A bunch of people who are distracted when taking photos! Look closely and you'll find people looking EVERYWHERE. Lol~

UNDERWATER WORLD

Their underwater world is three storeys deep!!! Lol! Not high! Deep!! It's so super cool! Their underwater world is so pretty! We even touched the starfish and sea cucumber!! The sea cucumber was black and furry... I didn't dare touch it.. so... i poked it! And i'm right! It feels disgusting. LoL! Their sea creatures are really really huge and beautiful!!!

The travellator! We really saw some amazingly beautiful sea creatures!!!

If only BBQ Stingray is just as big as these stingrays~ *Drools*

Say hi to Donald!

This fish here is hillarious! It not only looks like luo han yu with a big forehead... It swims slow and isn't as agile or flexible as normal fishes... We were laughing so hard when it was being fed... He couldn't eat really... the food usually falls on his head/face, and drops further down.

The turtle~~~ SO COOL! On the contrary, is fast in water...

Jovin (Taken by Ben)

NOW! Ask me why i have dark eye circles! Cause i put eye liner on that day, and it was so hot, it smudged... LOL~ That's the 2nd level of the underwater world! So cool right~

Streets of Hong Kong

Welcome to the streets of Hong Kong!!! The food is awesome!!! See the squid i'm holding?? It tastes AWESOME! I ate 4 sticks of it... I think even more. Their hotdogs are HUGEEEE! Ate the smelly tofu... Xueting, Karchun and shawn from SP ate the tofu, and left me the skin! I took a huge mouthful of the skin and almost puked to death! THE SKIN IS THE SMELLIEST OF THE ENTIRE TOFU!!!!!! ITS SO SO SO SO SO SMELLY!!! Tastes worst den shit! You've got to eat it as a whole piece. I had another opportunity to eat at another stall and it was so much better. Phew~ PLEASE DO NOT EAT THE SKIN ONLY! You'll DIE. And don't eat soggy skin ones... They're worse... OMG.

Meeting with Eldos, Hope London leader

We had the opportunity to have lunch with Eldos. He's a really amazing leader. His spirit in leadership is really something we need to learn from. His consistancy in God is just so amazing... That consistancy in his ministry, not flustered or angered... not a roller coaster ride. He's planning to plant church in Hope switzerland! Super cool! Wish him well!!! He really shared a lot with us!

Suquan and Eldos

Me, Eldos(Pronounced as Eldors) and Karchun.

Joke of the Day!

Eldos has a lot of siblings... more than 2 siblings. And he's the oldest.

Karchun: (whisper) Peixin, you know why Eldos parents named him Eldos?

Peixin: Why?

Karchun: Cause he's the eldest.

Peixin: -.-

Karchun: If he's eldos, then the youngest is called? Youngdos.

Jenny and Eldos!

Stock-up

Sorry to some whom i didn't buy any gifts for you! I will buy for you when i go on another trip! This time i really went to Hong Kong to stock up. Haven't bought any clothes for close to a year... Cause the things are so cheap, i really took the time to stock up... And these are what i got!!! The tops and belts and shoes are all less than $20!! Some even lesser than $10!!! Jeans i got it for less than my usual $32 jeans! So i'm satisfied!!!

I am a happy woman of God. LOVES HONG KONG~ Hope you guys had a good trip with me through the photos too~

Deuteronomy 17:18-20

2008-08-24T02:25:00.000-07:00

---The story of a man---

A man woke up one day and was on his way to school. Upon waking up, he heard the sound of quarreling on the above floor... The husband and wife upstairs were arguing about finance... And the man heard this sentence clearly from the husband,

'You have no right to interfere who i go out with, much less have an affair with. I work my lungs out to support you. You eat, live on me... So if you'd known better, you'll know not to make this into a huge matter.'

The husband closed the door with a loud bang.

The man just prepared his stuffs to go to school with thoughts ringing through his mind, trying to perceive what was right, and what was wrong... Was the man a jerk? Or is it understandable? I mean... guys are visual creatures right... you can't blame us, men, for being tempted... making this into a big fuss isn't something i want... so....

The man walked down the street and saw this teacher leading a group of students who were retarded or had down-syndrome... The teacher was teaching them how to draw... The man had compassion as he looked at this people for their plight... He thought to himself... 'How pitiful to be in such a situation... i'd rather die than to be like that.'

The man continued walking down the streets and saw the students in the normal technical class playing basketball. He looked at them and thought to himself... 'Look how fun they are! It'll be great to get to know them as friends! Doesn't matter whether i'm in express, or they're in normal technical... thou shall not judge God said in His bible right?'.

The man then reached his classroom, and one of his classmates approached him.

'Wayne, Good morning!.' His classmate greeted him morning in a shivery voice... He managed a smile...

The man (Wayne) rolled his eyes at him and just sat down in his place, ignoring the presence of his classmate. And so, his classmate returned to his seat dejected. The teacher came in and greeted the class, and so... class started...

The teacher then requested the class to volunteer for a chairman position to lead a drama in the upcoming school event. The classmate immediately raised his hands all excited. His favorite was drama. And he really wanted the experience... Wayne looked at the classmate and in his heart, he felt disgusted at his enthusiasm... And thought to himself,'Boot-licker.'

After that was break time! And another of Wayne's classmate was very excited for lunch. He ran over to his friends and he was loudly saying what he want to eat. Wayne went with his own click of friends. In his heart he thought... 'Does anybody care what you eat about? Must you be so loud.' And he walked away.

School ended, and he returned home. He was spending time with God, and all of a sudden, 'DING DONG!' His doorbell rang. He opened the door and saw the group of normal technical students he saw at the basketball court! He had made friends with them earlier on. The normal technical students asked him if he'd like to join them for a basketball game. Wayne would love to! And so on their way down to the basketball court, they made such loud noise because of their excitement, that some of the neighbors came out and scolded them for the racket they're causing...

When everything ended, Wayne ran out to buy some drinks for his group of cool and fun friends... and someone admist the group of friends said out loud... 'Boot-licker!'. Wayne got angry, and a fight broke out.

Wayne went home, all bruised, and kneeled on his knees to God.

'LORD!!! Look what they've done to me!!! I didn't judge them, loved them and spent time with them, tried to understand them, yet they beat me up and misunderstand me! Not only so, but they judged me! They never even give me a chance to explain! It's not fair Lord... And!!! Why didn't you come protect me? I'm a good person, having compassion on those who weren't mentally capable... humbled myself to the group of people... And this is what i get for being all nice.'

The classmate who volunteered to do the drama ran home, and took out his script to revise it... The title writes,'Jesus's Love'.

---End---

YOZ PEOPLE~~~ I'm so excited~ Today's been a real refreshing day with God. God has really humbled and showed me a lot of myself in a lot of ways as i spent my day with God. The story above isn't perfectly structured... but it really tells me a lot of stuff =)

I see myself in there sometimes. Haha... But i guess it'll apply for all of us in some way of another... Sometimes, we look at people with pity... and we think to ourselves that we're having compasion on people... but honestly... that's not compassion... True compassion is really from a heart of love... but sometimes, i realize myself saying... 'How pitiful... it's such a pain to be like them.' But i think, they're more blessed than i am... Who am i to see myself above them... That i'm not a retard... Pity and empathy is different... Contentment and haughty-ness has a huge gap as well.

Many a times, pride is hidden so deep into the depths of our hearts that it's so difficult to uncover... But what does God say about pride? If you remember... God says

Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death

Pride... is a sin. And no amount of good we've done can cover the sin that we have committed... Even if your pride is small, it is a sin... All sin is equal. Then the Lord says that when we trully repent from our sin is when we receive eternal salvation... The true meaning of repentence is sincere turning away from our sins... Not one sin... but all our sins... God wants us to put a full stop to the sins we are committing... If we do not do so... God says,

Luke 14:27
And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.

You're not truly a follower of God, a preacher of his gospel, or salt and light if we do not fully pin our sins to the cross as a sign of repentence, and follow God. NOBODY is above the word of God... No excuses or reasons can win against the word of God...

During my quiet time, God spoke to me in Deut 17:18-20

'When he sits on the throne as king, he must copy these laws on a scroll for himself in the presence of the Levitical priests.

He must always keep this copy of the law with him and READ IT DAILY AS LONG AS HE LIVES.

That way he will learn to FEAR the Lord His God by obeying ALL the terms of this law.

This regular reading will prevent him from becoming proud and acting as if he is above his fellow citizens.

It will also prevent him from turning away from these commands in the smallest way.

This will ensure that he and his descendants will reign for many generations in Israel.'

We are all becoming kings of our life... And even though so, we need to remember that even the king is led by God. As we lead and control our life, we need to admit the highest of all authorities above us... God...

And let us remember... God treasures heart attitude, what is invisible, what we do when nobody is looking, what we're thinking in our minds, more than what is visible... our actions... When our heart is right, we will act right. We need to love one another as a church, and accept one another, bearing with one another in love =) Though it's difficult, I love, because You first love me.

Anyone finding it hard to love a particular someone, finding it difficult to see your pride is an issue of your growth, and being a salt and light? Join me in my repentence and surrender =)

My God is worthy of more than rubies and treasures. He is worth my heart =)

One rededicate~ One conversion!!

2008-08-17T21:26:00.000-07:00

Praise the Lord!!! Levin rededicated to God during ESS on Saturday!!! Last week, Jiawen received Christ as her personal Lord and savior. Let's take this one minute to thank God for His grace and mercy. A minute of thanksgiving! *Pray*

Core team meet with Lestari and Mag was super fun lol! Laughed our butts off... We had teaching and evaluations. Some funny stuffs and booboos that Lestari and Mag had in a day. I really wanna thank God for Lestari~ She's really joy added to my life. XD It's the first time i heard Manasseh pronounced in a very different way. She pronounced it so singlish-ly i can't believe she's indonesian... The meeting was 4 hours long. LOL! Marathon~ After meeting, i sent them off to their bus stop... And Mag actually went to the other 293 bus stop... Which puzzled me for like... quite a long time... Anyway... these booboos will be funny if you're there. HAH! I'm just recollecting lol~

Okok!!!!! For something that's really interesting~~~ Pris, Mag and I went for movies on Sunday!!! It was super fun!!! Watched Dark Knight and the show's cool~ But his car seriously don't look that nice... It looks like a tanker.... =.= I thought it should look better, slicker, cooler... The car's quite a disappointment. But just when i felt that the car wasn't nice enough, a Lambourghni showed up!!! (however you spell that lol) And because of that lambo... i think batman's car is better... Going out was a lot of fun... listening to the nonsense... shopping... Pris and I pooled in money to buy mag a new top~~~ That top's super nice!!! Then we went to Hong Kong cafe to have Pris drink her favorite milk tea... and really sat there talking about ministry... It's just nice to chat~ Muahaha~

Oh yar... And priscilla saw this high-waist skirt... she didn't know it was a skirt so she asked me to try it... Pris 'AE!! Try this tube! It's nice!' The shop keeper standing in front said 'That's a short...' Pris and Mag started to check the piece of clothing.. it doesn't look like shorts at all... So i explained that it's a high-waist skirt... But Pris inststed that i wear it as a tube... and so i did... And i regretted.........

Joke of the day

KC: What you want to eat?
Lem: Er...
Kc: Faster lar....
Lem: Big map (Big mac)

LAUGHS!

FUN~

2008-07-04T09:41:00.000-07:00

Shepherding today with Nicholas and Lestari was FUN! HOHO!!!! Yea~ We went to Eighteen Chef to have our dinner there! It's uber cool! Basically the restaurant sells cheese baked rice! You get to choose your own sauce that goes with ur baked rice, and the ingredients. There're other food there too! Students, you're in for a GREAT deal. $5.90 for one ice lemon tea, and an ice cream! WOO!!!! Super cheap lor! And there's other food too of course. But the super cool one was Bolognese(however you spell that) Cheese Fries was totally a charmer!!!! Affordable and worth it!!! After that, we went to Pet Safari to look at the animals there. You guys should've seen my face when i looked at the dogs. I was CJ7 in it's form. HAHAHA! The Chihuahuas were so adorable!! Especially when the dogs jump at you!! SO CUTE. *Squealz*

But a good question... every wondered... why is it Chi Hua Hua... Not Chiwawa since it's pronounced as Chi Wa wa?? Hmmm... in the end, i pronounced the dog in its name. Chi Hua Hua. Nic caught it, and i laughed cause he tried to imitate me. HOZ. He's funny as always~ Who says to crack a joke, you need to force yourself?? XD Hamsters got lestari talking to herself!! LAUGH OUT LOUD. Like why... i also dunno... But she ultimately realized herself talking to hamsters... she went 'Omo, why am i talkin to hamsters' *Laughs* After that, went to Starbucks for teaching. Really challenge the two of you to do something big for God alright? =) Believe that God who can create the universe so big, with so many uncertainties and create a miracle through your lives =)

GOD ROCKS! WOOO!!!!

Think that shepherding was a time of refreshment for me really... Was actually thinking a lot this morning? Maybe age and life is really starting to catch up with me... As we grow older, really, we tend to think more... It's an age thing. LOL. Then a question really popped into my head as i was listening to praise and worship. 'Where'd the vibe when i was 17 go?' Hmmm... Puzzling... But i agree with Jenny. It's the most important thing in our lives to really spend time with God, listening to Him... =) Have a break, have something fun. See life as it is all over again. The beauty... HOHO Dogs, i love. By the way, 3 of us saw this two male golden retriever. One of it was humping the other... though not really having sex, but the action. Laughed like mad.

Watched Oprah this morning. Think it starts at 10.30? ZXT, you heard it? YES, OPRAH is back ON. Anyway, Oprah had this audience who really loved Gayle King, Oprah's friend. So she called Gayle and put her on air to talk to this guy Dean. Oprah said to Gayle after some conversations ,'He's too young for you~' Gayle: 'Hush Oprah, young i like.'. I laughed like mad. LOL! But the show today really got me thinking A LOT.

The topic today was about: Divorce. This young aged woman shared that her husband had an affair when she was having their 4th child. She caught the husband having an affair. But he said that he and the other woman only had an emotional affair. She took it as it is. A month later, the man left her for another woman. Apparently, there was a physical affair as well... meaning, sex. The woman said she hung on to the guy's ankle, but he just continued walking out of the house, dragging her across the floor. He left the children, the wife, for the other woman. The woman said this: 'He was a part of me. It was really difficult for me. He was my everything... The kids also needed him. I couldn't understand why any woman could stand being the third party to tear apart a blissful home.' So she wrote a letter to this woman telling her at the end of the letter: 'You're worth more than a guy who walks out on his family.' She said this to Oprah: 'I think it's difficult for him to account to his people really... He was the worship pastor.' (I couldn't feel more shocked when i heard that the betrayor was a worship pastor though i know no man is perfect.) But she said this, she's forgiven the man, he's having a good and steady relationship with the children still, though they are divorced... Oprah asked: 'Was it painful?' Woman: 'Yes, it's a long process, but when i was in my most painful part of my life, God brought me through.' God is love =))

It's a fruitful day really... I wish i could only learn more and hear more from God ^^

No matter how i'm feeling, i know that i won't stop moving =) Cause if i stop now, 10 years later when i'm a working professionaly, i don't think i'd even move anymore. There's more to stress bout, more to think bout chew know??

Do not worry bout tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry bout itself.

Master Wugui-
'What is tomorrow, is tomorrow. Cherish today, because it is called 'PRESENT'.'

Is your today a present?? ^^

BAKED RICE~ (Think portion is too little for some people)

Beef cheese fries~ Opps, did i say, the music there is nice too. And you can read cookbooks there. I like~

NOW!! FOR THE FINISHING TOUCH!

SEXY ME~~~ Taken few weeks ago when i was out WINDOW SHOPPING. LOL~

*Fav song~ Cardigans - Love Fool

The more i seek you

2008-07-01T22:11:00.000-07:00

'Stay in the Tabernacle for seven days and seven nights, if not you will surely die.' As written in the bible, so shall i seek my refuge within his presence for seven days and seven nights... It ain't easy but i still have the little fire that i don't wish to put out inside me. It's NOT over.

Spiritual life is always a warfare. Some refused to move forward, some yearn to move yet has circumstances around them, and some, are moving head on. Nevertheless, God calls us to live our day as wise and for him... How much is our life given to God? 10%, 20%,30%,40%? God yearns for our 100%..... When we refuse to move forward, don't we realize everybody else is moving on? Then aren't you only moving backward? When we yearn to move yet have circumstances around us, don't we realize, we're not the only one in this fix... Fight it bravely against all odds =) When we move head on, don't we realize we're using everything we have? At the end of the day, why does it seem like no matter what is done, is wrong? Because one thing is lacking, JOY.

Fighting for God is no longer of something of the flesh, but of the spirit. There's simply too much temptations, too much distractions, but all the more it's our spirit. Is the love still there? Are we still reaching out because of love? Or is it pure results we're looking for? Is there still joy when we're reaching our because of love, or disappointment?? Shouldn't we be burdened instead? Are we only moving towards results, or really seeing people like they ought to be seen? People are but human flesh... Or are we seeing them as walking objects? Conversions isn't about bringing walking objects in to church, but about bring flesh and blood with soul in to the kingdom of God... How much are we devoting them to prayer? How much are we asking for God for permission to bring their souls into the kingdom?

Found we've lost all the joy/motivation/love? It's not an excuse to stop... It's only an excuse for you to all the more stay near to God in your spirit. As you walk, pray, as you talk, the Lord's with you... as you do, it's devoted to prayer and empowered by the spirit... as we drag our feet, the spirit is lifting us up... So don't say 'I've lost in all, I need to stop' For God never stopped... He never stopped when he was preaching to us... But every moment of his life was devoted to prayer. The only time of silence with God, Quality time with God was the very first hour of the start of his day... and even more time when he had burden on his shoulder before his death was nearing in the Garden of Gethsemane...

To reap, you've got to die to yourself. So that you may bear new fruits and bloom again. Or else, we'll still be holding on to the already wilted flower... Where death accompanies... We'll bloom and wither, die and blossom again... How much are we aware of the new life that awaits the death of a flower? Do you see hope and life, or death? To die to ourselves, how much courage does it need.... I don't know for anyone... for me, it's taking me everything i have... and it's scary... but i'd rather die with God empowering me, den to know i'm dying without Him beside me... For i know God's plan is only good... If i die without him by my side, i'd know... i'll never blossom again... May the Father water me with the cup of fresh living water in his hands, may i die to myself, and see the beauty again. =)

My daddy, is worthy enough for my everything... Everything i own, is given by Him.

Seven days in your tabernacle... ^^

WAHAAAA ZXT BIRTHDAY COMING!!! OMGOMGOMG~

I'll try this once

2008-06-18T09:46:00.001-07:00

If Shawn's got a blog, i'll tag him 8 times ^^

A.) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B.) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
C.) Have FUN!
#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Find it hard to trust that person... avoid

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Be really spiritually & talented

#3. What will your dream wedding be like
Church with tainted glass!!!!! Flowy wedding dress.... Ok... my dream wedding... is when i have the PERFECT FIGURE! WOO!!!!! Wear anything also nice.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Pretty much still finding it...

#5. Do you like cheese ?
Depends on what kind. Cheddar sucks big time. Blue cheese? I dare not try... Love mozarella

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone I love! ^^

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Until he rejects me

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Give support

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Relationships with people i guess...

#10. What is the most heart breaking moment for you so far?
Sheep leaving church...

#11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Totally female... 170cm and 45kg. Gorgeous.

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
God, family, shepherd, dmm, friends.

#13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Cute and adorable...

#14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Married but poor

#15. What is the first thing you do every morning?
Think... 'I need to pray' Then, pray

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes... Not very good i find... Not now MUAHAHHAA

#17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one i can click with and someone i can trust.

#18. What type of friends do you like?
Someone who accepts me for who i am and listens to me...

Person who tag me:
Nicholas
People whom I tagged:
Xue Ting
Kar Chun
Lemmuel
Chia Min
Rayna Choo Hui Juan
XiaoYing
Joycelyn
Serene

5KG Rule!!

2008-06-17T09:42:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Peixin runs around in circle* I feel so freeee~ Desire Service is over!!! It's such a great joy to see so many rededications and conversions! Indeed, it's been a great long time since we've seen such a vast number of people coming to know Christ!!! And i'm so glad that the script this time is used! Praise the Lord! I'm so joyful that many people enjoyed the service! I believe God is the Alpha and Omega in this. He has really blessed me with a lot of inspirations in this scripting... Also, in the filming, directing, sourcing of actors. God is more faithful than I am... Praise Him. ^^

Lemmuel's group had 1 rededicate! Kc's group also has 1 rededicate! Girls had an influx of visitors!!! THAT IS SUPER GOOD NEWS OKaaAAY! ^^ We're really gonna celebrate this! We will reap some day when the timing is right! But we've done right in the eyes of our Father by giving our best! And doing what is faithful~~~ Hallelujah~ Hallelujah~ Hallelujah~ Hallelujah~ Halle lehh~~~ LU JAH! \o/

Just am so glad for the service =) Let me share a little, as usual, thanks be to God for the amazingly talented cast of Kaien, Gordon, Luke, Samuel, Karchun and Juli. They were really very cooperative. The late nights of rehearsals, they really stayed without complaining. Just like in the bible 'Do everything without complaining or arguing'... We even had last minute changes to script just before service. And only one run through. Thank God for suddenly giving me ideas to implement into the script so there's more flow in the drama....

Actually in the midst of the rehearsals, a lot of people fell sick... Lishan, one of the dancers for Shut Up and Drive got food poisoning, Kaien got fever, Jo-N and Georgia felt nauseous. It was really a spiritual warfare... But thank God! He has really the best plans for the service... The flow was still a little shaky before Saturday... still some flowing problems... but Saturday, many things turned out fine!!! So greatful =) So amazing. If i were to look back now. If God's hands weren't upon us, this service would be a total flop you can trust me in this...

Pastoral wise, it has been really taxing... Juggling between ministry and pastoral... A lot of street invitations, a lot of going around, a lot of things up my mind constantly... but something just tells me 'just work your best for God, He's worth it' and then it got stuck in my mind 'He's worth it, He's worth it, He's worth it, He's worth it.' That even when i really felt like giving up and crying, i just kept thinking, God is worthy of all i'm doing.... And indeed, God has honored those who loves Him with all their heart... Anything, it's God's....

SO!!!!!!!!!! SERVICE WAS???? AWESOME. AND!!! I GOT GOOD NEWS!!! I reduced weight! Ain't gonna tell you my weight now, and all those who know.... SHUT UP! And i lose 5kg!!! That's like a baby's weight??? I think i need to give birth to another 2 babies!!! So excited! Wanna lose another 5kg... I don't know if i can do it man... BUT PLEASE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME BE SLIM FOR ONCE. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAA... Aiyar, God decide lar HOR? >.<

Just a short description of sunday... went roller blading... SUPER HATE IT. But no choice, DMM wanna go, den we go lor HOR. Culprit? ZXT. But i had a great time laughing at LEMMUEL! He was practically running with his blades!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Cause he don't dare to slide on his blade! WAHAHAHAHA. Alright, just imagine on your own okay? XT fell down with lem... Hilarious~ Alright... Till next entry okay! MY FATHER ROCKS MY BUTT AWAY

Making Important decisions

2008-06-03T12:57:00.000-07:00

Today, i had the most fruitful day EVER! Went for ULC =) Feeling very refreshed. I can feel a lot of knowledge flooding me, but at the same time, a need to sort out a lot of things within me. Thank God for Elaine, our teacher today, who helped me figure out thinkings as a third party. Talked about restructuring and also discipleship today! Mmm... much to learn for me man! But really thought through what was learnt today, and i guess i've got an important decision to make... So i told xueting. I don't know what's the verdict. But i guess the only thing i should know is, honor God =)

Getting better from my flu today! Yesterday was a terrible day. Not only have i little sleep. The muscle cramp was so terrible, i was tearing... I waked up at different occasions. But praise the Lord =) He gave me sufficient rest. Still, all these is worth it! Challenge your Limits is ABSOLUTE fun!!!! HAHAAA~~ I really loved the event! Professionally done! I must say!! I loved it all. Though the tug-of-war... ahem! a bit... overpowering on the SP side.. LOL! The TPians were literally dragged along the sand like being fished. After the tug of war, i could feel my hands leaving me at night... PAINFUL! But like i said... worth it!!!!!!

After that day, i was down with a bad case of flu. Went to town alone. And felt very drowsy along the way... but since i couldn't find any other time to do what i have to do, i just prayed... But I walked slowly. And didn't talk much. Did most of the listening to Xueting and her stupid jokes during DMM. Met with karchun to go down DMM together since he was at novena. Haha, nonsense guy... This morning, still feeling the drowsiness, but God has really healed me a lot! Praise God! Can't talk a lot... there's still migraine once in a while. But it was better than yesterday =) Met with Shawn today for Ajisen!!! Yea~ Ate Volcano ramen. Super spicy. LOL! But nice~ After that, went town again, bought something real cool! I love Great Singapore Sale! So many things are at 50-70% off!!! OMG!!! Heeren has a lot of things on offer now!!! You guys should really go check it out. The guys are gonna benefit more! Cos most of the items on sale are guys items. Girls... we're not as lucky... only 10-20% discount off. Sigh~ Shopped for bags and belts today and saw a Levis bag which looks super professional! But guess what! 20% off! but $110........... I almost died on the spot lor... The belt? I saw it at Fossils... $88 nett... T.T Expensive!!!

But for myself, i saw a few nice stuffs, a skirt $169, cat earrings $48. These are things i'd NEVER buy...-.- See can already... Super not worth it. I rather eat with the money... Next week, Shawn's bringing me to German sausage place!!!!!! HURRAH!!!!!!!! Sooooo excited!! And i ate ribs today!!! Not honey glazed! I was intelligent. Chose Italian herbs instead! OMG!!! SO NICE!!! Though not as meaty, but i could see heaven!!! So touched. Thank God for providing me with ribs~ God knows my desires! Heeheeee!!!

2 more days, much to do, no time to lose =) Really pray for a good time, for a touching time, for a real tinge of appreciation. This time, i'm not letting it go down the drain =) God, please help me! Because i so love her very much.

I wanna try a lot of food~~~~~~~~~ I wonder how food in heaven tastes like! Hope i can cook better and bake great cakes when i go heaven! XD RANDOM POSTS~~~~ MUAHAHA.

Evangelism? I'm kicking up a storm for myself!

Lecture Hall BIG TIME CRASHING

2008-05-30T10:21:00.000-07:00

WOO~ Crashed crashed crashed! I woke up three times this morning, and received shocking commands from our dear Pastor Jasmine.

Pris: Did you receive Jasmine's sms?
Faith: No.

The next moment i looked at my handphone....

Jasmine: Hey Faith!! Really challenge you to bring all your people to invite in lecture halls! Be daring to ask from God!!!

I'm sorry Jasmine i didn't reply you, LOL! But really thank God for you for giving me that challenge. After receiving that message, i wanted to die. A lot of things went through my mind in fact. My first few thoughts are 'Huh, it's super not effective. I've done this before. Is there any other things or options?' So i really took some time to jus lie down on my bed and pray to God. I was asking God... God, i have 4 shepherdings one after another today... I can't go down... And if i don't go down, who will be the example? So what should i do???... Everything at that moment really seem so important to me, all of 'em.

So i really accounted to my shepherd and asked her, what should i do. Thank God for her word of knowledge! She said this 'I'm sure Jasmine knows how slim the chances are. But it's about heart attitude lor, not about results. Maybe you see how you can work it out?' Eventually, i decided to shift one of my shepherding to Saturday. Thank God for that sweet and understanding sheep of mine. So after my shepherding with Samuel, we went down together to TP which is already around 2.50pm by the time we reached. Then we met up with Lestari, Jiamin, Serene, Cindy and Nic. Then we roamed the entire Applied Science and IT school for lecture halls. We asked the lecturers for permission to invite, and i can remember. I literally shouted so as to capture their attention. It was EXCITING!!!! OMG!!! I was so scared before i entered the room!! But once i started! I was FILLED with joy!!! I'm so glad i obeyed the Lord!!!! After that, we couldn't find any more lecture rooms, so we went to tutorial rooms to invite!! PRAISE THE LORD! The teachers allowed us to share and the students really listened!

I'm so proud of Jiamin and Cindy for their courage despite of the response! It's the heart that matters! I'm so proud of Lestari and Mag! For their humble heart! I'm so proud of Serene! For pushing herself! I'm so proud of all who were present! Jiamin, Cindy, Lestari, Mag, Serene, Karchun, Lemmuel, Shawn, Darren, Nicholas, Sermeng! For their obedience to Christ!! Let's never forsake a heart that will love the Lord regardless of results! Let's never forsake our unconditional love to our Father God! I'm so proud of all of you =) For the choices you've made =)

I've been having breakthroughs in my life recently! I pray that it'll be consistant! May the Lord test me more in this, so that i may be refined by fire... =) It's really true Lord, How could i live without you... how could i survive without your love, your touch. You are HERE in MY life. I am truly blessed, and truly greatful... People, listen! I have a Father who is with me all the time! If i'm out of my mind, or i have an imaginary friend, i wouldn't have been so sane in the things that i do. There wouldn't be so many people giving their lives and making decisions for God instead of themselves!! The people who serve with me are living proof of how real God is =D Come and know Him... and see for yourself! There isn't any harm, is there? =)

Give me another choice, i'd do the lecture hall crashing again ;)

OH YA OH YA!! BEFORE I FORGET!! I REALLY WANNA SAY THIS!!!!!!!!!!! I'm like SUPER craving for GIGANTIC MEATY RIBS and BEEF HOR FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Screams* Meaty ribs~~~~~~~~ I seldom eat such stuffs... really wanna eat some T_T good tasting ones

After Service Fellowship

2008-05-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

It's been quite some time since i joined the girls for fellowship! Yesterday after service, we went to PS Foodcourt to eat. By the time we strolled there, i had to leave for Drama meet which lasted till 12.15am!!! Oh gosh... still i made my way down to the Rochor tau huay on 64! Cause it's faster. LOL! A load of stupid stuffs happened at the beancurd stall.

Rayna raced Jiamin to finish the soya milk to the bottom... In short, bottoms up. But for don't know what reason, Hui juan stopped and stared or 'diao' Jiamin! So i laughed and tried to imitate her. But i couldn't contain my laughter, and spit milk all over poor prisy's face. LOL!!! Before this happened, the gentleman at the table beside us spilled soya milk all over his pants. So we gave him tissue to clean up. When i spit all over Pris's face, the gentleman actually gave us tissue back. LOL!! Hilarious... And after that, the girls just proceeded to talk about random stuffs. LOL! Now, i wanna present to you!!! The CHEAPO group!!

THEY! Engit 3 and 4! Went to the roadshow outside PS, and asked for FREE popcorn and candy floss!!! EVERYONE OF THEM GOT IT!!!! And! Rayna and Cindy actually took FREE popcorn and candy floss! Others, only chose one! DOUBLE CHEAPO LOL!!!! I was the only one who didn't take. LOL!

We almost went to watch Indiana Jones together. Cause i told them it was funny. And Rayna got excited as in EXCITED. Wanted to watch late night movie, but in the end, no safra card. =D Girls group, move on to God's glory alright??? ^^ Loves, Faith.

Emo Memo

2008-05-19T22:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a bad bad day. The Devil sent a memo to me yesterday morning, making me all emo throughout the day. Still, i tried to fight it all away with the Word of God. I just read and thought through what the bible spoke. His word has to be my strength. But some things just never leave my mind. Sometimes i really wonder in church, is this person really saying 'yes'? So often i hear people saying that the leaders in church are hypocrites... But i really wanna ask, are they? Because it seems to me, there are many others in church who can be hypocrites too... Duh~ I don't want to talk about this topic anymore.

Emo emo emo...... think i'd better go read the word now =) SIM~ here i come~

THE OFFICIAL LAUNCH!!!

2008-05-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

Your Grace~ is enough~ Your Grace~ is enough~ Your Grace~ is enough~ for me. On Saturday, the drama was officially put on stage! Praise the Lord! It received positive feedbacks! That the drama was funny! Of course of course, there are improvements to be made... But God really gave us ideas for the entire service. From the host, to the drama, to the praise and worship, to the preaching and the video clip, to the lights, the MM, the sound, the altar call, to the ushers... Everything was really God's very blessing! Really witnessed a lot of souls take a gigantic step into the kingdom of God! Isn't that AMAZING??? HAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm totally excited when i really see people streaming down the isle! This is really the salary for all the casts' hardwork. God is worth it! Really!

Now it's a new ESS! On the 14th June is another opportunity! And i'm so excited that God has given me the privilege to participate =) May God bless us with continual renewal. Thank you Lord for receiving my little gift to you, for allowing me to give you the glory that you're due...

Went to Bugis with Nel, Joycelyn, Jenny, Jen and Xueting for dinner! It's actually opened for all... In the end, we went for steamboat at my dad's favorite stall at Golden Mile Complex! Per person for $14! And Xueting is STILL hungry after the dinner... Fat shepherd. After that, we went for late night movies =) I really enjoy nights out! Keeps my mind occupied! =D Really had fun with Jenny and all! Hoho... Though the topics erm..... Just keeps revolving around something.... LoL~ And i'm so glad i had the afternoon with Nicholas... Just chatting and chilling... I like to listen too to him speak LOL! And laugh at him. LOL! Then i met Xueting for shopping at Bugis!!!!! But guess what... the only things i look at are for the guys and girls. Couldn't find anything nice there for the girls! =/ No nice clothes at all... As for the guys, designs are too complicated for you guys. LoL.

Now, i can officially put up the drama rehearsal photos!!! WOOT!!!! Hope one day i can be able to dance... =) Watch out for the self-obsessed people!!!!

Hahaha!!! And, recently, there's been a REAL big construction work in Europe room! With the Decor team cheonging their lungs away. But some female disturbed their working conditions! That one with the flower on the head.

Behind the scenes footage of drama prep and rehearsals!! Zhui duo ba guo de Blog. LOL!

My fun!!!

DRUMROLL PLEASE!!! NOW!!! PRESENTING TO YOU!!! MISS ______ FAT SHEPHERD!!!!!!!!!!

* I wish i owned a washing machine in my brain. If only i could be simpler.*

Scary!

2008-05-14T00:43:00.000-07:00

I just reached home only to find my living room lights on. Oh my gosh, i'm pretty freaked out right now. But i don't dare to check out the other rooms if there's anybody, so hopefully the person might leave secretly without me caring about him/her. Another possibility could be simply, i forgot to switch my lights off. But i don't recall switching on the lights... This is scary....... Nonetheless, God protect me~ If i die, it's God's plan. LOL!

Alright, just finished shepherding with Shawn. It was hilarious. For one of the first few times, i enjoyed pasta at pasta mania. Meatball Spaghetti. The rest, totally not my cup of tea. Especially Cabonara and creamy chicken.... Shawn as usual must say something about me during shepherding... it was raining, so the birds took shelter nearby. And a fat one caught his attention. It's feathers were ruffled and messy, and it looked fat. Then another one flew beside it, it was skinny and not neat. Shawn said... 'That's you and kc... so obvious ar hor? One so fat one so skinny.'

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I think Shawn's very mean... He shouldn't say KC like that lor... Also not say shawn skinnier, why say KC fat.. =/ Here are some photos during rehearsals! We had a good time of sharing of testimony yesterday night!!! I'm really encouraged to hear that the casts are inviting friends and May shared that her entire class is coming to support her!!! The rest of the cast have friends coming as well! It's really exciting and encouraging to hear such good news! It'll happen in Engit too =) But still, i hope my friends will come and give me support. Afterall, this is my first production in church =) Just as friends to come and give me support would be enough ^^

Now, meet da man!!!! LUKE AND JEREMY K.I.U!!!

I'm still alive! Means that i forgot to off the light when i left the house. LOL!!! God blessed!!!!!

I'm REALLY excited to post that photo!!! Looks like cyclops and Jean Gray!!! HAHAHA That's Kaien and Jeremy Kiu!

Sports Day & Drama Rehearsal

2008-05-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

Woooo! It was sports day!!! First, congratulations on winning your $200: Darren, Daniel, Lemmuel, Shawn, Kelvin! Today was a really long day! I got to sit at the sidelines to cheer the people on, and occasionally study for my Final Theory Test which is the next day! I seriously wanted to die... Arh! Final Theory Test is so difficult! I don't really remember anything at all... God's grace bring me through pretty please!!!!!!!! Congratulations to Try's team for winning $200 as well!!! Great game!!

Really got to know some funny people from the soccer team and captain's ball team! LoL! Had a great time laughing at them =) We were there since 9am to 5pm! And i'm totally burnt!! XD Like Kogepan. Afterwhich, me and jolene went down to PS to wait for drama rehearsal... Just when i thought we'd be alone, i got Luke from RP to come down for dinner at 6pm. Thank God for him, it was entertaining, and so was Joleen. LOL! I laughed at Joleen so much... During rehearsal, while waiting for the cast to arrive, Jeremy Kiu and Kai en were raving mad! LoL! One word sums rehearsal, Fruitful. We improved, we improvised, we sharpened, we joked! =D

Haven't really been resting well, and my whole body's aching right now, from all the exercise loads these few days. My leg's having muscle cramp, my eyes are red. God give me rest =) The next few days is another war period! God please bring me through!!!! For our temporal suffering is earning us an eternal glory!!! =)) Our work is not to waste and never for nothing.

Some pictures of the day~

I sttole Jeremy's specs. My hair looks totally disgusting LOL!!!!!

Joleen and me drinking our fav milk tea at MOS burger!!!

Service was really cool this week. It's the second time i'm sitting with my new caregroup! It feels so different!! Really thank God for the group that they are accepting people =) Here are a bunch of photos of them playing a fool! Lestari must've thanked God she left to find her mum LOL! I'll let her off the hook this time!!! Proudly presenting you~ Beauties of TP Engit 4!!!!!

P.S

Shufen doesn't resemble me, Faith Chan! Cause i'm prettier!!!!! Sexier!!!!!!!!!!! Cooler!!!!!!!! And my sheep is funnier than she looks lol!!!!! She's SELF-OBSESSED. Shu fen? SELF-HIGH. Lestari - SELF-PROCLAIM. LOL~~~ By the way, Mag said Lestari looks like squidward in Spongebob Squarepants LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drama Rehearsal!

2008-05-08T13:28:00.001-07:00

It's a new skin!!! Alright, it took me so long to find the skin that i could use for blogger!!! I have no idea why, but i've found some blogskins i really wanted to use, but it's alignment just goes off when i copy it to blogger.. Arh~ And i've got a cute template with cats... But just couldn't use it... Arh~ a little upset..

Drama rehearsal was smooth! Really thank God for his blessings that i'm still able to help little by little!! =) I really love acting a lot. The emotions that come with acting is just one word 'Satisfying'. The real joy is when people can really relate to what u're putting on to the stage. =) Audience of One!

Alright, something funny!! Nicholas has some booboos!!! Lol! I'll show you

Well, Nic said that the person had psychology problem, and look what he said. (I'm not supposed to write it out!) LOL! Thursday we had BBQ for our Matthew event!!! Visitors came!!! It was a success!!! I'm so glad! And i really had fun that day. Didn't realize East Coast really changed so much! It seemed like i was at some street market... Love it!! Lol, i just looked at them and really wanted to play a prank on them... So i forced Pris, Shawn and Lem to sit on the merry-go-round. But guess what! They get to sit on it for free! Though it didn't go round, but at least it was free... a ticket for $3 you know! Lol... and a family was laughing at them as they were doing that... And don't you find an uncanny resemblence between shawn and the gorilla?? LOL!!! And i wonder why Lemmuel seems like he's in the arms and protection of the gorilla... It looks hilarious... And you can see me and Pris there acting bimbotic. LOL! Thank God we weren't chased away... but we were behaving like we're overseas. LOL!

Oh and Karchun made cookies and cakes for the unit often! He's a really good baker!! These box of cookies were reallllyyyy reeeeaaaallllyyyyy YUMMY!!!!! I felt so happy after eating it LOL! I'm envious of his cooking skills!!! Something Lemmuel once told me. Quote 'If KC is a girl, i sure like him one lor. Seriously, i will like him a lot one eh... really...' Unquote. Isn't Lem devoted? Though in the wrong way, but lol! Hope KC feels flattered. LOL! But one question i asked Lem, 'With all his digging and flicking of nose shit at you?'. Lem went quiet. LOL!!! But still! He said 'Other than that.' Faithful hor? Can see his unconditional love! LOL! But i bet KC feels more relieved after that last sentence. HOHOHO. Wife with good baking skills.

Some funny photos of the guys gaying away. My disciple and sheep~ Playing a fool~ LOL! That's a curtain band, used to tie up the curtains, and Nic is wearing it on his neck. LoL! I forced him to! But don't he look cute LOL! And Shawn's burger is bigger then his face. That's his appetite!

A few days ago, i bought something from Ben, and he got it delivered to me. The funny thing he told me when he first saw me was, ' This is the bike from the romance show fullhouse by rain'. I laughed cause it seemed like he was going to the market.

Oh yeah, and remember i was talking about the Pikachu United? I took some photos on the day they had a friendly match with East D. I'm really encouraged to see their spirit =) God lifts those broken hearted as always =) Thank God for the entire team who never gave up. It is by God that vessels may be sent to you in order that his supplication will reach to you!!! And some really heart warming pictures... Heehee..